My Journey in Islam is Transforming

Prior to joining The Nation of Islam, I voiced what I wanted for my life and I had an exhausting list of questions that were hard to find answers for. So when I attended my first lecture on Sunday, January 12, 2014, it was shocking to see and hear some of what I wanted for my life and to receive answers to questions I had for years. It only took one meeting to plant seeds in the womb of my mind and heart. No, I wasn’t sure about joining just yet, but I knew I wanted more. It was a lot to process. Could this all be too good to be true?

Following a couple of weeks, I decided to take a trip to the mosque. This time I attended my first processing M.G.T. & G.C.C., Muslim Girls in Training & General Civilization Class on Saturday, January 25, 2014 and returned to the Sunday meeting on January 26 to hear Sister Ava Muhammad. It was nice to see and hear a Black woman speak so freely on what she believed in, in such a civilized and confident way. The spirit and the manner in which she delivered the message resulted in me joining The Nation of Islam and I have not looked back since. From there, I worked hard to understand the prerequisites of The Teachings of The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad. Later that year, I became a registered member of The Nation of Islam on September 20, 2014.

After eighth grade, I was moving to a mindset that no longer wanted to be in the close company of women. There were girls who backstabbed me and I felt as if I could no longer trust women, but I knew it wasn’t best to take men as “close” friends either. I knew that there was power in women coming together, but I wasn’t sure if that was possible for my life. Being in the processing class opened my eyes to a powerful sisterhood. The way I observed the processing instructors, it made me see the beauty in women collaborating and being one united front. My work as an empowerment coach now meant so much more then just some thing I was doing. Listen to the full interview here.

So when I walked into the registered M.G.T. Class, I was very grateful for being chosen by Allah to be considered as His girl who is being refined. Not only am I becoming a better individual, I am collectively aiding in the betterment of the condition of this world. The world will not improve, until the woman is uplifted. A nation can rise no higher than its woman, so if I’m not being elevated, I understand that it’s best to remove myself from potentially detrimental situations. I am the standard. We the M.G.T. are the standard and Insha’Allah (God Willing), we will be pleasing to The Most High.

StudentBeing the standard is easy to say, but it’s not easy to grasp what this means in totality. If we are truly the standard, which we are, then this implies that there’s a lot of work that must be done. 75% of work is with the woman. As much as I can recall, the woman has always been on the frontline working, alongside the man and without the man. Being the Second Self of Allah (God), we make no excuses. We work even when we’re tired and through the pain. This work requires an ongoing study. Can a woman who does not study say that she is fulfilling God’s Will? I know an M.G.T. cannot. In the very title is a reminder that we must train and be in class. So to be an M.G.T., we must humble ourselves to always be a student. I am always thankful to say and show that I am a student of The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad under the divine guidance of The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan.

I am thankful to The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan for standing firm in his Islam and in The Mission to resurrect the dead. Had it not been for The Minister, I would not know about The Nation of Islam or our true history that is not shared in this world’s educational system. Most of all, The Minister has helped me embrace who I am, all of me, the duality of me that most could not stand to receive a glimpse of. One of the many of gifts that he’s given is Self-Improvement: The Basis for Community Development study guides, which has been a tremendous aid. Throughout his stand as the representative of his teacher, The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad, he has reminded us of the importance of resurrection (killing the devil and raising the god within). No matter how much I tried to improve myself elsewhere, I was also searching for more because I was never feeding from The Source. It is The Teachings that have allowed me to continue becoming who I am supposed to be. I can never thank this beautiful man, who has sacrificed himself for humanity. Referring to him as a humble man is the least.

As my personal testimony, I must share that The Minister’s profound statement, “Pain is the mother of creativity” is one that has helped me most. Accepting Allah (God) and declaring to Him that I want to serve in The Mission of raising the dead is not easy, especially when the first dead that has to rise is you. And then after you’ve been raised, while you’re bringing more home, there is always more work to be done with the person in the mirror. Raising the dead in us is an ongoing task. It’s one that I don’t want to stop and wouldn’t have the option to opt-out of, if I wanted. As I’m continuing to learn that self-improvement is painful, I’m also learning that it’s purifying. Trials are purifying and just as painful as it is to become one with Allah, it’s just as ugly to look at others in their pain sometimes. I’m not sorry for saying that. I’m keeping it real. We can all be some ugly people. I’m learning that just as ugly as I can be in my healing process, others around me are just as ugly. This understanding is helping me be more forgiving to myself and anyone that has possibly caused me an ounce of pain. The reality is that we cause pain on ourselves more than we like to point the finger. People are not perfect and this includes the people who follow Allah (God). Islam is perfect though. Islam is the be all. Look at the word, “ISlam”. It’s like BElam. Okay, I’m corny, but I hope you see the point I’m making.

Overall in life, which Islam is a way of life, we are constantly being tried because everyday there is a test to pass/past (excel in and move forward). I used to hate test, especially pop quizzes. Now, my goal is to take the test and take my time through it. I’m in no rush. I am in the class of God and I have a lot to learn about Him and myself. Instead of asking “why me” or “why this test required”, I am thanking Allah that He still sees me as worthy and I am continuing to purify my heart, so that my mind can be prepared and so that my actions align with my mental and spiritual being. My Islam is transforming and I understand that this is an ongoing process for me and those surrounding me, so I’m covered with Allah’s armor, so that I can put forth my all.

I Am Covered Through Trials

I was blessed to be born and raised in The Nation of Islam with a personal decision to officially register in 2014. I joined because I saw no other way of life worthy to accept. None proved to be a path I belonged to.

The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan is the literal reason I was born, for if he had not penetrated the minds of my parents with the truth of Allah (God), then they would not have married and conceived me. He is the ultimate example of a human becoming a god, just as Jesus 2,000 years ago said we were! What hasn’t he done for me?

John 10:34 Jesus answered them, is it not written in your law, I said, ye are gods?

As a registered member of The Nation of Islam, I have the opportunity to strive towards perfection and ultimate godhood in the M.G.T. & G.C.C., Muslim Girls in Training & General Civilization Class. However, it is a challenge to be in this world and not succumb to being of this world. I have stumbled plenty of times, but what helps me be steadfast is the protection of the sisterhood. The sisterhood is the equivalent of God’s covering (the “hood”).

Through everything, I know I have Allah and my sisters to make it through. Islam is trying in a world that does not approve, but I’m not done giving my all for freedom.

Allah’s love for His girl, Sister Terrika Muhammad

I am a “Nation Baby” so I was raised in the Nation, but I did still choose Islam for myself. Because we are a curious people with free will, we all have that period of time where we wander from the religious beliefs that we were raised knowing. That lasted approximately six months for me. I realized quickly that I belong in The Nation.

img_0241-2I started hanging with my college friends, you know, living the “college life” and Allah (God) always showed me that I didn’t belong. I had a death experience at least twice. One, an associate was under the influence, and almost drove us off the road. The people around me all thought this situation was funny, but I knew, Allah’s goal was to snatch me back in. I was even put on probation from college being at the wrong place at the wrong time. Thankfully, I completed secondary education with a Bachelors of Science and am currently in the field of technology in accordance with my studies. Then, I was completely oblivious to where I was in that moment. The song that I relate to, that literally had me in tears was Crawl by Chris Brown. I had to crawl my way back to The Nation, to Allah. Quickly!

He gave the human being something that He never gave any of His creatures. He gave us the free will to choose and then He offers us the right way. But He lets us choose if we wish to follow His Way.
– The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan, A Prescription for Humanity (article)

The Nation of Islam set me apart from the people I was around in public. I was taught things that the world could never teach me. I was taught that cleanliness was next to godliness and that I could literally become God! I am the Second Self of God. What an honor that is! If all women knew that, we would carry ourselves better and move like we were on top on the world. Because we literally are. We build nations. I wouldn’t have learned these things had it not been for Master Fard Muhammad, The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad and The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan. I love them for their sacrifice and for saving my life.

The Nation of Islam showed me how special I was from a young age and helped me to see my true value. Being an M.G.T., Muslim Girl in Training gives me that okay to still be a little girl in Allah’s eyes, while still evolving to be the best woman that I can be. One who is always willing to learn more from God and His servants.

Matthew 18:3 “Assuredly, I say to you, unless you are converted and become as little children, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven.

God’s servant in our midst, The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan has given me life! I think life should include fulfillment, purpose, honor, humbleness. Minister Louis Farrakhan has taught me how to achieve all of that, plus more! I have a life with untapped value that I am still learning how to discover from The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan.

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As I’m continuing to discover my value, I see the importance of dressing modest, which brings up a challenge that comes with being a Muslimah: what do I wear?! Especially in the summer. Almost every store wants for you to conform and show some kind of skin! I am overcoming it by getting my own clothes made. Sometimes we have to go the extra mile for things we love. My Islam is love.

Sister Fatimah: The Revolutionary

I was born in the Nation of Islam, but I accepted for myself and officially registered approximately two and a half years ago. As a registered member, I am a part of the M.G.T. & G.C.C., Muslims Girls in Training & General Civilization Class.

In short, M.G.T. to me means being willing to be shaped into the model of the new woman that comes out of the mind of our Saviour, Master Fard Muhammad.

There are many challenges that I face being a Muslimah, but my number one challenge in this journey is getting other women to understand that we are by no means oppressed. This is a spiritual path that we chose after all else had failed us.

Islam comes after everything else fails.
– The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad, Everything Has Failed (article, republished from Message To The Blackman)

Sometimes I feel ostracized by others (not necessarily in my sister circle) because they see Muslimahs as weak. They don’t understand our expression of womanhood, so they judge us. Fighting hard to be righteous in this world is strength and Islam has allowed me and many others to freely express our femininity at the highest level. I want others to see the freedom in Islam.

The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan has done so much for me that I can’t thank Allah enough. I would say the most paramount thing is helping me to discover and understand my intrinsic nature. His guidance has enabled me to see deeper into self and realize my value as a co-creater with God, not just physically, but spiritually. No other teacher or preacher of religion on this planet is elevating the black woman in America and really all women over the world.

He has encouraged me to remain steadfast in this journey of self-development so that Allah may use me to be an example for my daughter and other girls/women. The knowledge of self and of Allah can absolutely transform our lives!

There may be many challenges that I face, but it is my Islam that is making me stronger. My Islam is revolutionary. As long as I have Allah, I am a force and will continue to stand in the fight to serve as a vessel who is contributing toward bringing in the new world.

Sister Zakiyyah Maryam’s Islam is Resilient

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I am Zakiyyah Maryam and was born and raised in Memphis, Tennessee in the Nation of Islam. My family’s journey to Islam began with my Great-Grandmother, Willie (May Allah Be Pleased with her). She had to pick cotton when she was growing up. She was a sharecropper and that injustice system that kept black people in an economically insufficient condition also kept them away from formal education, which my great-grandmother did not have.When she was allowed to move away from sharecropping, she then began teaching herself how to read and became an avid reader. It was also the truth in the Teachings of the Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad, which is Freedom, Justice, Equality (Islam).

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The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad

The truth that the Black man is The Maker, The Owner, Cream of The Planet Earth, God of The Universe. The truth that the Black woman is the mother of civilization. The truth that Allah (God) came in the Person of Master W.D. Fard Muhammad and that The Messiah or Mahdi has come and would judge this world — in particular America based on her mistreatment of the so-called Negroes of North America and the members of the Original family (Native Americans/so-called Latinos, Asians, and our brothers and sisters in Africa).

This is The Teaching that uplifted my great-grandmother’s spirit and she began introducing her children to The Teachings of Islam through the Honorable Elijah Muhammad. Though my great-grandmother did not register as a Muslim in the NOI (Nation of Islam), my grandmother did and the rest is history. But on my own personal sojourn in Islam, I was soul searching and I was at a point in my life where I needed to find inner strength and inner peace and I discovered that in studying The Holy Qur’an as well as The Teachings. I was about 14 years old when I actually became personally invested in Islam and I decided that I wanted to officially re-register when I was 18-years-old making me officially a part of the M.G.T & G.C.C, Muslim Girl Training & General Civilization Class.

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Personally to be an M.G.T. is to be a sister, a righteous woman. A Muslim Girl in Training is not just a look. An M.G.T. is a righteous woman. Righteousness is the essence of our being. We are taught in the NOI that the woman is the second self of God. She is divine and sacred in her nature. Our seven training units brought to us by Master W.D. Fard were to lay the base of the cultivation of our righteous nature and to one day be the leading example for women all around the world. But I think, we must start by looking at our sisters, whether are Muslims or not, as truly our sisters and see the divineness in each other, just as the head of the class, The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan teaches.

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The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan has influenced me and the world in many ways, with the Help of Allah. One principle that the Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan has taught me is to challenge your fear. He has shown that throughout over his 60 years of service in the Nation of Islam and in rebuilding the Nation of Islam for 40 years absent his teacher, The Honorable Elijah Muhammad. The Minister has travailed through the opposition of the enemy, the powers that be, and other obstacles to complete the promise of Allah (God), which is to break our people free from the shackles of the enemy. The Minister discovered his purpose and I think when you know and understand your purpose in life that you are able to challenge your fear against the greatest of opposition because you have a firm ground of certainty of what it is that you must fulfill. This is not to say that challenging your fears is an easy feat, but it is possible.

According to the dictionary, “fear” is a distressing emotion aroused by impending pain, danger, evil, whether that pain, danger or evil is real, or imagined. If you become afraid even of some imaginary thing that has not yet happened, the distressing emotion will still be present. “Fear” is the feeling, or the condition of being afraid.
Fear restricts: Whatever we are afraid of, that which we fear makes us insecure; and whatever makes us afraid and insecure could cause us to bow. When we are afraid, fear causes us not to think properly. Fear causes us not to act properly. Fear makes you so insecure that you have a tendency to acquiesce, to submit, to surrender to the thing that you’re afraid of. And if you acquiesce, submit and surrender to what you are afraid of, then it becomes a god to you beside God!
– The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan, Fear, Faith, and Truth (article, lecture)

My current challenge as a Muslimah is attending a college campus with a Muslim population that is not only small but disconnected with the Muslim community outside of campus. Part of that challenge is the fact since Muslims have attended my university, there has not been a connection with the Muslim community outside of campus and that also impacts us individually, as well as how we see each other. It’s getting better now and I think the political climate is forcing us to understand that we do have to grow out of our little shells and embrace each other. I think for me it’s just been hard being the only Black muslim female student on campus and feeling in between of standing out but also feeling isolated. It was also hard because I was just beginning to join the NOI when I started college. But I think through prayer, patience and just being honest about my experience helped me overcome and also knowing I only have two months left, until graduation so I won’t feel this burden much longer.

It started with my great-grandmother who was planted with a love for Islam, so much that the love transpired and lives through my family. I am grateful for her being an example of what it means to be a mother of civilization and for her love to transcend and have such an impact generations later. I am thankful for everything she endured. She has taught me that Islam is Resilience. And resilient, I will be.

Muslim Women’s Day: Sisters in The Nation of Islam

ProfessionallyI’m in marketing and was offended when a story in the pipeline for Muslim Women’s Day got delayed because “it’s not a widely-known holiday”. Because I’m taught to rise above emotions into the thinking of God, I realized that it is my responsibility to spread the Good News and represent as a Muslim woman. I don’t need to wait on anyone or expect anyone else to do the work. I will say, I am happy my job will share a story on a Muslim woman. It’s just that comment was an ouch that I turned into an opportunity.

Documented Journey covered eight stories of eight beautiful sisters who are embracing their Islam. Sit back in your chair and join us on our journeys.

* My Journey in Islam is TransformingSister Zakiyyah Maryam’s Islam is ResilientAllah’s love for His girl, Sister Terrika MuhammadI Am Covered Through TrialsSister Fatimah: The RevolutionaryWearing a garment is naturally beautifulSister Sharanda Died Three Times to LiveWho and what is your reflection?


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Navy Bean Smoothie/Shake

“You put beans in there?”, says everyone who doesn’t know the power of the navy bean.

This Saviours’ Day, The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan let us know that it is now law to eat one meal a day.

With slim Sisters and Brothers striving to obey, there are some concerns regarding weight. Some of us are mentioning the need for protein shakes, but whey and other powders are not healthy. The alternative is what? The navy bean.

Last year, I fell off from the suggested one meal a day plan, so when Ramadan came, I felt the need to find ways to get more protein. I know the navy bean has the most protein, so I searched for ways for the bean to fill me. This is when I heard about navy bean smoothies. Initially, the thought sounded disgusting, but then I started thinking about bean pie and said this has to be delicious.

This year, I returned to eating every 48-hours and the need for more protein hasn’t been the problem. But now that I gave up chips and sweets for Lent, I wanted a quick fix that wouldn’t cause me to break the fast. So I returned to the navy bean smoothie or shake (whatever you want to call it). I’m so thankful for the navy bean. It allows you to be creative and healthy, all while feeding that sweet tooth.

Are you looking for a healthy protein shake? If so, this may be for you.


Banana & Cinnamon

1 banana

1/2 cup of frozen navy beans

1/2 or 1/3 cup of milk

Cinnamon to your liking

Apples, Bananas, & Cinnamon

1 apple

1 banana

1/2 cup of frozen navy beans

1 cup of milk

Cinnamon to your liking

Sweetener options

  • Blueberry agave (it’s honestly worse than honey)
  • Organic honey
  • Dates
  • You can add chocolate (you’re going to love it)
  • I honestly rarely add any sweeteners. The fruit should be all of the flavor you need.

I use whole milk. Once, I ran out of whole milk and used my family’s nasty unsweetened almond milk *laughs* (it was actually good). However, I recommend raw milk. The amount of milk depends on how thick you prefer it. The consistency is your choice!

I don’t measure cinnamon, as you can see, sometimes I go a little overboard. I love cinnamon. It’s good for inflammation and much more.

Frozen navy beans are recommended, so you can avoid adding ice. Ice will make your smoothie/shake watery.

I encourage you to drink this within 20- 30-minutes after your meal to ensure nutrients digest properly. That’s all for now. If you give it a try, let me know how you like it.


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Psalm 1: Reflections

Psalm 1

Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor standeth in the way of sinners, nor sitteth in the seat of the scornful.

But his delight is in the law of the Lord; and in his law doth he meditate day and night.

And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither; and whatsoever he doeth shall prosper.

The ungodly are not so: but are like the chaff which the wind driveth away.

Therefore the ungodly shall not stand in the judgment, nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous.

For the Lord knoweth the way of the righteous: but the way of the ungodly shall perish.

Reference: Bible Gateway



Who and what is the company you keep? Do they reflect who you want to become?

Counsel: 1) advice; opinion or instruction given in directing the judgment or conduct of another. 2) interchange of opinions as to future procedure; consultation; deliberation. 4) deliberate purpose; plan; design.

Are you constantly hearing/reading their thoughts? If so, you’re seeking counsel from them regardless if you’ve asked for it or not. Think about what’s in your social media feed – is that the type of counsel you need? Do they reflect who you want and need to be? Do they reflect God?

Look at your five closest friends. Those five friends are who you are. If you dont like who you are, then you know what you have to do.

-Will Smith

I think it’s important to first focus on who the people are in our circle/cypher. Why? Because we can start clearing the clutter, it’ll allow us to think clearer, which leads to making better decisions.

Whenever we want to make change, we must first clear our minds. It’s hard to think clear when you have a lot going on in your environment or when your environment doesn’t match where you’re aiming to go. So now that we understand that there is a need to clean up house, let’s do some work on self.

Sin: 1) transgression of divine law 4) to commit a sinful act 5) to offend against a principle, standard, etc.

Transgression: violation of a law; command

Transgressor: to violate a law, command, moral code, etc.; offend; sin. 2) to pass over or go beyond

From the womb, we are born into a world of sin. With divine intervention, we are reared according to God’s Law (no matter the age that we begin to tap into our Father), which excludes us from being of this world (John 17:16), but when we step out of what we’ve been taught and exceed limits, we become unhappy, feeling as if there is no peace. Peace comes with living righteously because that is what gives us a clear conscious.

The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan teaches “The righteous love the the discipline of God.” If this is true, which we know it is, then that means the ungodly are those who go against The Law and justifies what God makes clear of right and wrong.

This first verse reminds us that the blessed man is the righteous. What have we done right lately and what have we comprised, according to The Law?

What is the law of the Lord?

That’s a loaded question. Let’s start with The Minister’s words.

“All growth is change, and that pattern of growth and change is dictated and directed by the evolutionary law of God that exists in nature and in all of His creation. We call Him, in English, The Lord. In Arabic the word for Lord is Rabb. From that you get Rabbi, or teacher, nurturer. Rabb means, as an attribute of God, one who nourishes a thing, making it attain stage after stage until it reaches its eventual perfection. But it is the Lord Who set that law into motion. That law is in existence for all living things; and we live in a universe of life that is constantly undergoing change.”

– The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan, Accept The Challenge to Change

Change: to transform or convert

Therefore, that means we are required to change, to be in a constant state of transformation. Law is motion. We must always be moving in the direction that will bring us closer to Allah (God).

How do we do live according to The Law and implement what we learn? We must first have faith. We know faith without works is dead (James 2:14-26). In order to do the work of God, we must be obedient. Therefore, it’s required of us to be faithful and obedient in our works. While we work, we must remember to do unto others as we would have others do unto us. That’s the duty of the righteous and continue practicing selah.

Selah: praise and meditation

Delighta high degree of pleasure or enjoyment; joy; rapture

Are we pleasing to Allah (God)? Have we prayed? A morning reminder that I like to send is:

Pray before you scroll.

It is what I have to tell myself. It’s more than a thank you to God that you say when you rollover. Again, I’m talking to myself.

Meditate: 1) to engage in thought or contemplation; reflect. 2) to engage in transcendental meditation, devout religious contemplation, or quiescent spiritual introspection. 3) to consider as something to be done or effected; intend; purpose

Prayer is a part of meditation and meditation is a part of prayer. Meditating throughout the day and night allows us to elevate and focus.

Do we feel as if we’re growing or reversing? Depending on your answer, you know what’s needed to bring the necessary change.

  • A person who is growing needs ongoing development
  • A person who is reversing needs a reawakening

Doesn’t this tell us that we must continue to feed on The Word to ensure that His thoughts become our thoughts, regardless if we’re growing or reversing? We must remain students of life.

Isaiah 55:8-9 

For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord.

For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.

In order for us to have Allah’s (God’s) thoughts and ways, we must feed on His Words. When we not only study, but apply His Words as lessons than we put ourselves in Heaven and are able experience life beyond Earth? Aren’t you ready to explore more than this realm?

Reference: Bible Gateway


Are you grounded? 

What is your truth? Based on your truth, how does it correlate to your development?

If life consists of water, then we need water in everything we do. Brothers, if you’re married, you shall have 100% of truth. The Sister consists of 75%, while you bring 25% to the table. Did you know 1/2 of your faith is marriage? However, this post is not about marriage.

If we are following Allah, we are bearing fruit in the correct season. With you as his plant, you won’t deteriate if you follow His instructions. If not, we wither from the lack of water (truth) that we choose to deprive ourselves from.

The Moon is a reflection of The Black man and woman in the Hells of North America. Aren’t you tired of being deprived of water (life and truth)?

“Right conduct produces good character is the the same as a tree that has a water source, it will never thirst because it has been planted in the perfect condition and has a direct line to its nourishment. Seek he first the kingdom of God and all his righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you. Direct line to God is the tree planted by the rivers.”

Sister Sharanda Hakim-Haqq

When we are grounded, we prosper. Are you ready to ground self? I am; it’s actually the title I gave for 2018. Let’s ground ourselves and feed on pure water from our God to ensure our leaves bloom.


Chaff: 1) the husks of grains and grasses that are separated during threshing. 2) straw cut up for fodder. 3) worthless matter; refuse.

Husks: 1) the dry external covering of certain fruits or seeds, especially of an ear of corn. 2) the enveloping or outer part of anything, especially when dry or worthless.

Threshing: 1) to separate the grain or seeds from (a cereal plant or the like) by some mechanical means, as by beating with a flail or by the action of a threshing machine. 2) to beat as if with a flail.

Flail: 1) an instrument for threshing grain, consisting of a staff or handle to one end of which is attached a freely swinging stick or bar. 2) a similar instrument used as a weapon of war.

Fodder: 2) people considered as readily available and of little value

When I read this verse, it makes me think about Sza’s “Dove In The Wind” song. The title of the song sends a message that will go over most heads, meaning most will never understand what she’s referring to and what she wants men to takeaway from the song. But this isn’t about Sza. Do we want to be a dove in the wind who never receives what Allah (God) has for us? I’m sure that’s not the case. The righteous want to be like the eagle, who sees more than a dove. Also, in the case of the verse, we don’t want to be swallowed. If the wind would drive us away, that’s essentially saying that we would be taken away. That sounds worse than the dragon that drags us.


I used to have a problem with restrictive law number twelve (Do not associate with those in bad standings or out of the mosque). However, I’ve had to learn in ways I could’ve avoided had I just listen and respect The Law.

I thought if a Believer made a mistake, it was best for them to be surrounded by those (the righteous, who) they want to live like. However, if they truly wanted to live like the righteous, they would’ve abided by the law.

When one part of an apple molds, the entire apple rots. Although the mold may only appear on one side of the apple, it does not mean that the rest of the apple is edible. There are some who would cut the mold off, toss it, and eat the remains of the apple. I particularly know people who will do this with bread. If a slice of bread is molded, they will throw that slice away and eat the rest of the loaf. However, if they understood, the mold spreads, even if it’s not visible to the eye. This is the same with us as people. It’s best for those who are living other than themselves to be amongst themselves, until they are no longer toxic for the ones working towards purity.

It may sound harsh, but I’ve had to learn from personal experiences and I will no longer keep the company of those who are a virus to the mosque.

The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan gave us The Restrictive Laws of Islam is Our Success. Do we believe that following and living in accordance with The Law is our success?


Which leads us into the last verse, Allah (God) knows best. He gave us a teacher, The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad, and then left one amongst us in our midst, The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan. Do we trust Allah (God) to know the way of the righteous?

I’m sure we don’t want to perish, so let’s be the blessed man who is ready to transform and who walketh in Allah’s (God’s) way.

Perish: 1) to die or be destroyed through violence, privation 2) to pass away or disappear 3) to suffer destruction or ruin

I read where the Master was teaching by the side of the road, because the church is not a building. The church is you. Building the church is building the character of God formed in you, then Allah (God) walks when you walk; Allah (God) talks when you talk; Allah (God) acts as you act. You become the Church of God in Christ.

…What is a Muslim? A Muslim is one who submits his will entirely to do the Will of Allah (God). Never let names divide the House of God anymore. If one says, I’m a Christian, if one says, I’m a Jew, if one says I’m a Muslim, stop and watch how they live. That will tell you who they really are.

If Allah (God) is not king in your dome (head), then you don’t know the awesome power of The Ruler, because when Allah (God) rules in your house, you don’t fear men, you don’t look at the power of the great military strength of America and bow down. If The King is on the throne in your dome, you know that He’s omnipotent and gives you power through your faith to change the realities of your life.

– The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan, The Duty of the Righteous in The Time of War


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In 2018, take care of you!

Peaceful New Year!

How many years have you spent writing new year resolutions, but not actually making new year resolutions? This year, I encourage us to have a made up mind. As The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan teaches, “Beloved, there is nothing more powerful than a made-up mind. Don’t say, “I’ll do it tomorrow.” Don’t tell me about “tomorrow.” Don’t tell me about tomorrow, because you know nothing about tomorrow. All that you have is this moment in time. Make up your mind, now!”

Read “Ditch the usual New Years resolution: Do these 5 things instead” by Ebboni X Savory to help you implement achievable practices.

How full is your cup?

In 2017, I spent a lot of time pouring into others. You’re probably thinking what’s wrong with that? Nothing, unless you’re doing that more than you’re filling your cup. In 2017, I poured into everyone’s cup before mine was filled. This year, I’m only pouring if my cup is overflowing. I’m not saying it’ll be easy, but it’s important for me to master the need to do for self first.

The goal is to have an overflowing cup before you give.

Clean and detox

  1. Clean your environment: Once you make your mind up, it’s important to thoroughly clean your space (your home, your car, etc.) before clearing your mind. Your mind feeds off what it sees. When you’re living in a cluttered space, it’s hard for your mind to focus, especially when there are so many visuals in sight.
  2. Fast/detox: Controlling your stomach will help release chemicals that are in your body and it will help prepare your mind for focus and quiet time. What you eat also has a huge affect on what you think. Eat to think. Eat to live. Last, watch what you intake once you decide to break the fast. Don’t allow your time of fasting to go to waste.
  3. Reflect on your strengths and growth areas. Affirm self <click to read me). As you accept the process of growing, those who no longer serve you, will automatically be removed from your life.
  4. Live for you. Put yourself in a confined space <click to read me).

 

It’s easier to say what we can do, but it’s harder to put everything in practice. I simply advise that you (that we) just get started doing whatever we want. “[The Honorable Elijah Muhammad] said when people wrote him about their bad habits, “How can I stop?” he said, “Just stop.” Why would he say something like that? There’s no big, long drawn-out thing, to break a habit. You have to develop the Will to stop, and then stop… You can stop any bad habit once you make up your mind!” -The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan, The Restrictive Law of Islam Is Our Success, page 61

Therefore, if all that’s required of us is to stop when we want to break a bad habit, then if we want to acquire a habit, it would be that we just start.

Starting is the hard part. The reason why you started is what helps with consistency.

What do you envision and who will hold you responsible?

In order for me to ensure I’m ready to accept the challenge, I’ve worked on vision boards that will keep me focused throughout each day. We as a people have zero limits. However, it’s important for us to set boundaries. Boundaries do not mean you’re limited, just as loving someone with conditions does not mean you don’t truly love them. We even have to love ourselves with conditions. When I’m living other than self in a way that is not pleasing to Allah (God), I can’t say that I love the person I am portraying. I do love myself enough to accept my own and be myself and you can’t do that without conditions. Loving with conditions shows your love for others; it’s called accepting responsibility in the form of being accountable. Do you have an accountability partner? <click to read me)

The best accountability partner is Allah (God). He will stop you in your tracks when you steer off on the wrong path. It’s just that we have to be clear to receive His Guidance and instructions. The second best accountability partner is yourself. We have to learn to hold ourselves accountable. Oftentimes, we want to hold everyone around us to a standard, but do we hold ourselves up to the same or even better because after all we are the ones living our own lives.

So this year hold yourself accountable, if you choose to work on your vision board, remember:

If it’s not in your vision, don’t allow yes to be a part of your decision.

Don’t make impromptu decisions. Learn how to say no. More importantly, learn how to say no without an explanation.

So in 2018, instead of making a list of what I plan to do, I’m focused on ensuring that the priority is taking care of me. When you take care of self, your health and wellness will increase and you’ll be ready to give to others.

Title 2018

Every year deserves a title. I title my year based on the previous year and what I know is coming. Last year was the year of fruition. I planted a lot of seeds for self and gave birth to some, but mostly for others. This year the seeds that I planted for myself will be manifested, but in order to make that happen, I have to be firmly rooted. Can you guess what the title of this year is?

When thinking about your title, reflect on what 2018 equals.

2+1=3

3+8=11

1+1= 2

2 = you define what “2” means for you

Who has approval over your life?

This year don’t wait for the approval of others. Don’t ask for the thoughts of others, unless it’s sincerely someone you trust. However, I encourage that you don’t allow the total of number you trust while you’re in the womb to exceed more than three people. You already have 1) Allah, (God), 2) you, 3) husband/wife, so why would you want the thought of more than this group of people who are in your corner to affect your actions?

Stop asking the blind to proofread your vision.

For me, 2018 is the year of Grounding. I will be firmly grounded in Allah (God), The Teachings of The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad under The Guidance of The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan. I will be firmly grounded in self, so that I can receive and fulfill all of what Allah (God) has for me. This will allow me to give to others, as I desire in a controlled way. What will you be grounded in and what is the title that you have for 2018?

Self-care may sound simple, but sometimes we make more time for others more than ourselves. Remember to take care of you first. It’s not a simple task. In fact, it’s one of the most important duties.


I began with “peaceful new year” because you don’t know how a person left 2017. I know I’m not the only one who experienced trial and error, but I know there are folks who haven’t properly healed yet. Therefore, the word “peaceful” may uplift someone, while the word “happy” may remind someone of their condition that they’re not necessarily “happy” with. May we reflect on previous years for great success and receive all of the blessings Allah (God) has for us.

It is not just a new year. We must acknowledge one of our brothers on this day. Click here to remember Oscar Grant.

I Live – Poem

What I’m going to share is not my story alone. Your story is mine, my story is yours. So I ask: as I share my experience, will you reflect on self?


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I am beginning to appreciate the Cycles of Life.

Allah wrote on my heart last night, I felt His presence so clearly.

He imprinted His mind on mine and I received it all in a dream.

I woke up and realized what Allah was showing me. He gifted me with The Bee to say the least. He reminded me of all of the reasons to live.

He gives me purpose when I feel as if there’s none left for me. He told me to stop asking “how” but to remember the mission and get right to work because it’s a remedy for healing illnesses. Diving into the work provides direction. I bear witness. It recharges you and gives life when it feels as if there’s nothing left. The work fuels you. Being in your presence fuels me and if I come in with my Higher Power, then I too, can fuel you.

And I desire that reciprocity, for us to be a reflection of one another. We are His children, so let’s mirror what that means.

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Selfless when it comes to serving God. Because although this is my life to live, my life is not mine. I am all for God. And God is love, so I’m living because interchangeable to love is to live. So I had to (re)learn how to love me again. This new found love enabled me to live again. But do you understand that I partially had to die for this rebirth to love and live again? Understand, that I say again because killing doubt, ego, fear, insecurities, and vain is an everyday process.

••••

I’ve come to realize that we are always in the womb, a stage in our development that brings forth our reality, a new chapter on our journey of life. This journey is an awakening path. And on this path I had to learn from The Minister that, “pain is the mother of creativity”, so I had to reflect on the illnesses that Allah permitted, but I caused.

••••

It was like starting over from the womb. I had to go back to a dark place, I had to put myself in a confined space. All I could hear and feel was Allah. All third parties had to be removed. It was just me and Allah. And honestly, I did not like this place or the pace in which God and I were co-existing. Everything seemed to be too slow. I was becoming impatient. My impatience led to me becoming a sick patient.

Due to my ignorance of not wanting to endure the pregnancy phase, I began to lose the critical aspects of my development because I aborted the process. The 9 stages. I need all 9 to aim towards completeness to become one with Allah, to be whole again. But my pain brought me back to life.

••••

I made a commitment to take care of self first. And stop doing the most for others. I had to arrange the line of duty in the right order.

I turned the TV off to see my reality clear. My life became crystallized and my need for crystals vanished because I was able to activate my crystals within.

But in order for me to keep them charged, I had to remember that I’m dependent, so I submitted to God. And my love for Him prepared me for the battlefield. His armor helped me confront my trials. And when I got through them, this time I wasn’t broken. Instead, I was renewed. Transformed for His cause.

••••

I have another problem. When I learn, I like to give. You see? I give as I receive. But I’m learning as I receive, I shall pause for I, for me. Just as I need to parse words, I need to parse the moment. When I’m done sharing a piece that God gave to me, I’m going to take part in a moment of solitude, which has “I” before “U” in the word solitude with lit before the u.

See I need to spark a fire in myself first, in order to be So LIT. So-lit-tude. That probably went over your heard. But basically, if I don’t see myself as light then no one else will.

So my selah moments lift me. Selah just means praise and meditation. So my Selah moments lift me. So when people say “there is no cure for that”, I tell them, don’t use that dead language around me. You + Allah is your own cure, but you gotta spark that mustard seed by putting your faith to work.

Blessed doesn’t mean that I won’t be a mess… In fact it’s because of my mess, that I am blessed. Misfortunes are my fortunes. The way you challenge me shows me my challenged self. So please encourage me when you see I’m off. And I’ll do the same for you. Cause when together, we reflect our Higher Self… Flying like the bee…

••••

Can I talk about my totem with you? The bee. The bee is my spiritual totem. A totem, is similar to a spirit animal, but on a higher plane.

According to science, bees are not supposed to be able to fly, like the Black man and woman are not supposed to rise. The wings of a bee are not supposed to be able to lift the weight of their body. Our knowledge is not supposed to be able to lift the masses of the people. But, like the bee who has its wings, we have our wings. Protect your temple. Use your crown as the wings to free yourself as the bee does.

••••

BUT in order to reach this freedom:

You gotta start over from the womb. Go back to a dark place, put yourself in a confined space. Hear and feel Allah. Remove all third parties. Just you and Allah. And honestly, you may not always like this place or the pace in which God and you coexist. Everything may seem too slow. You may become impatient, but don’t become a sick patient.

Endure the pregnancy phase. Enjoy your development. It’s a process of 9 stages. You need all 9 to aim towards completeness to become one with Allah, to be whole again.

If you nurture the trimesters, you will give birth to a god. That’s you a new god. Your pain will bring you back to life. And instead of coexisting with God, you will live with Him. Don’t just exist. Live. Understand your purpose, take care of you, so that you may heal the community.

••••

Allah wrote on my heart last night, I felt His presence so clearly.

He imprinted His mind on mine and I received it all in a dream.

I woke up and realized what Allah was showing me. I parsed my learnings in moments of solitude. And then I gave (right now) what I received to you.

I am beginning to appreciate the Cycles of Life.