My Journey in Islam is Transforming

Prior to joining The Nation of Islam, I voiced what I wanted for my life and I had an exhausting list of questions that were hard to find answers for. So when I attended my first lecture on Sunday, January 12, 2014, it was shocking to see and hear some of what I wanted for my life and to receive answers to questions I had for years. It only took one meeting to plant seeds in the womb of my mind and heart. No, I wasn’t sure about joining just yet, but I knew I wanted more. It was a lot to process. Could this all be too good to be true?

Following a couple of weeks, I decided to take a trip to the mosque. This time I attended my first processing M.G.T. & G.C.C., Muslim Girls in Training & General Civilization Class on Saturday, January 25, 2014 and returned to the Sunday meeting on January 26 to hear Sister Ava Muhammad. It was nice to see and hear a Black woman speak so freely on what she believed in, in such a civilized and confident way. The spirit and the manner in which she delivered the message resulted in me joining The Nation of Islam and I have not looked back since. From there, I worked hard to understand the prerequisites of The Teachings of The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad. Later that year, I became a registered member of The Nation of Islam on September 20, 2014.

After eighth grade, I was moving to a mindset that no longer wanted to be in the close company of women. There were girls who backstabbed me and I felt as if I could no longer trust women, but I knew it wasn’t best to take men as “close” friends either. I knew that there was power in women coming together, but I wasn’t sure if that was possible for my life. Being in the processing class opened my eyes to a powerful sisterhood. The way I observed the processing instructors, it made me see the beauty in women collaborating and being one united front. My work as an empowerment coach now meant so much more then just some thing I was doing. Listen to the full interview here.

So when I walked into the registered M.G.T. Class, I was very grateful for being chosen by Allah to be considered as His girl who is being refined. Not only am I becoming a better individual, I am collectively aiding in the betterment of the condition of this world. The world will not improve, until the woman is uplifted. A nation can rise no higher than its woman, so if I’m not being elevated, I understand that it’s best to remove myself from potentially detrimental situations. I am the standard. We the M.G.T. are the standard and Insha’Allah (God Willing), we will be pleasing to The Most High.

StudentBeing the standard is easy to say, but it’s not easy to grasp what this means in totality. If we are truly the standard, which we are, then this implies that there’s a lot of work that must be done. 75% of work is with the woman. As much as I can recall, the woman has always been on the frontline working, alongside the man and without the man. Being the Second Self of Allah (God), we make no excuses. We work even when we’re tired and through the pain. This work requires an ongoing study. Can a woman who does not study say that she is fulfilling God’s Will? I know an M.G.T. cannot. In the very title is a reminder that we must train and be in class. So to be an M.G.T., we must humble ourselves to always be a student. I am always thankful to say and show that I am a student of The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad under the divine guidance of The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan.

I am thankful to The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan for standing firm in his Islam and in The Mission to resurrect the dead. Had it not been for The Minister, I would not know about The Nation of Islam or our true history that is not shared in this world’s educational system. Most of all, The Minister has helped me embrace who I am, all of me, the duality of me that most could not stand to receive a glimpse of. One of the many of gifts that he’s given is Self-Improvement: The Basis for Community Development study guides, which has been a tremendous aid. Throughout his stand as the representative of his teacher, The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad, he has reminded us of the importance of resurrection (killing the devil and raising the god within). No matter how much I tried to improve myself elsewhere, I was also searching for more because I was never feeding from The Source. It is The Teachings that have allowed me to continue becoming who I am supposed to be. I can never thank this beautiful man, who has sacrificed himself for humanity. Referring to him as a humble man is the least.

As my personal testimony, I must share that The Minister’s profound statement, “Pain is the mother of creativity” is one that has helped me most. Accepting Allah (God) and declaring to Him that I want to serve in The Mission of raising the dead is not easy, especially when the first dead that has to rise is you. And then after you’ve been raised, while you’re bringing more home, there is always more work to be done with the person in the mirror. Raising the dead in us is an ongoing task. It’s one that I don’t want to stop and wouldn’t have the option to opt-out of, if I wanted. As I’m continuing to learn that self-improvement is painful, I’m also learning that it’s purifying. Trials are purifying and just as painful as it is to become one with Allah, it’s just as ugly to look at others in their pain sometimes. I’m not sorry for saying that. I’m keeping it real. We can all be some ugly people. I’m learning that just as ugly as I can be in my healing process, others around me are just as ugly. This understanding is helping me be more forgiving to myself and anyone that has possibly caused me an ounce of pain. The reality is that we cause pain on ourselves more than we like to point the finger. People are not perfect and this includes the people who follow Allah (God). Islam is perfect though. Islam is the be all. Look at the word, “ISlam”. It’s like BElam. Okay, I’m corny, but I hope you see the point I’m making.

Overall in life, which Islam is a way of life, we are constantly being tried because everyday there is a test to pass/past (excel in and move forward). I used to hate test, especially pop quizzes. Now, my goal is to take the test and take my time through it. I’m in no rush. I am in the class of God and I have a lot to learn about Him and myself. Instead of asking “why me” or “why this test required”, I am thanking Allah that He still sees me as worthy and I am continuing to purify my heart, so that my mind can be prepared and so that my actions align with my mental and spiritual being. My Islam is transforming and I understand that this is an ongoing process for me and those surrounding me, so I’m covered with Allah’s armor, so that I can put forth my all.

Allah’s love for His girl, Sister Terrika Muhammad

I am a “Nation Baby” so I was raised in the Nation, but I did still choose Islam for myself. Because we are a curious people with free will, we all have that period of time where we wander from the religious beliefs that we were raised knowing. That lasted approximately six months for me. I realized quickly that I belong in The Nation.

img_0241-2I started hanging with my college friends, you know, living the “college life” and Allah (God) always showed me that I didn’t belong. I had a death experience at least twice. One, an associate was under the influence, and almost drove us off the road. The people around me all thought this situation was funny, but I knew, Allah’s goal was to snatch me back in. I was even put on probation from college being at the wrong place at the wrong time. Thankfully, I completed secondary education with a Bachelors of Science and am currently in the field of technology in accordance with my studies. Then, I was completely oblivious to where I was in that moment. The song that I relate to, that literally had me in tears was Crawl by Chris Brown. I had to crawl my way back to The Nation, to Allah. Quickly!

He gave the human being something that He never gave any of His creatures. He gave us the free will to choose and then He offers us the right way. But He lets us choose if we wish to follow His Way.
– The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan, A Prescription for Humanity (article)

The Nation of Islam set me apart from the people I was around in public. I was taught things that the world could never teach me. I was taught that cleanliness was next to godliness and that I could literally become God! I am the Second Self of God. What an honor that is! If all women knew that, we would carry ourselves better and move like we were on top on the world. Because we literally are. We build nations. I wouldn’t have learned these things had it not been for Master Fard Muhammad, The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad and The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan. I love them for their sacrifice and for saving my life.

The Nation of Islam showed me how special I was from a young age and helped me to see my true value. Being an M.G.T., Muslim Girl in Training gives me that okay to still be a little girl in Allah’s eyes, while still evolving to be the best woman that I can be. One who is always willing to learn more from God and His servants.

Matthew 18:3 “Assuredly, I say to you, unless you are converted and become as little children, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven.

God’s servant in our midst, The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan has given me life! I think life should include fulfillment, purpose, honor, humbleness. Minister Louis Farrakhan has taught me how to achieve all of that, plus more! I have a life with untapped value that I am still learning how to discover from The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan.

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As I’m continuing to discover my value, I see the importance of dressing modest, which brings up a challenge that comes with being a Muslimah: what do I wear?! Especially in the summer. Almost every store wants for you to conform and show some kind of skin! I am overcoming it by getting my own clothes made. Sometimes we have to go the extra mile for things we love. My Islam is love.

Muslim Women’s Day: Sisters in The Nation of Islam

ProfessionallyI’m in marketing and was offended when a story in the pipeline for Muslim Women’s Day got delayed because “it’s not a widely-known holiday”. Because I’m taught to rise above emotions into the thinking of God, I realized that it is my responsibility to spread the Good News and represent as a Muslim woman. I don’t need to wait on anyone or expect anyone else to do the work. I will say, I am happy my job will share a story on a Muslim woman. It’s just that comment was an ouch that I turned into an opportunity.

Documented Journey covered eight stories of eight beautiful sisters who are embracing their Islam. Sit back in your chair and join us on our journeys.

* My Journey in Islam is TransformingSister Zakiyyah Maryam’s Islam is ResilientAllah’s love for His girl, Sister Terrika MuhammadI Am Covered Through TrialsSister Fatimah: The RevolutionaryWearing a garment is naturally beautifulSister Sharanda Died Three Times to LiveWho and what is your reflection?


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Wearing a garment is naturally beautiful.

On a typical moment of scrolling on Facebook, I smiled when I noticed a Sister expressing her love for wearing a garment. In my elation, I had to stop and read her post. In it she was sharing how thankful she was to have and wear a garment that is instructed for Sisters who are registered members in The Nation of Islam (NOI) under The Teachings of The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad.Screen Shot 2018-02-16 at 11.02.28 AM


I truly love being in my garment, so when I see the same appreciation in other Sisters, it just makes me smile inside. To know that Sisters feel comfortable and that they’re being their true selves, while being completely covered. Most of all, the garment is a sign of obedience – it’s pleasing to Allah (God).

Sister Tanzania says, “People wear clothing to express themselves to show their sense of fashion. Wearing a garment isn’t something a lot of women are willing to do. Being in a wicked society, tight and revealing clothes is the trend.”

Is tight and revealing clothing the trend? 

I beg your pardon. I think not. I agree with Sister Tanzania – being of this world will make us think that our undergarments are permissible to wear. Tights and leggings have become the new pants. Undergarments have become a part of the attire of many for the rest of the world to see, but the reality is it shows that we don’t understand what beauty is or what it means to value ourselves as a woman.

A trend is what we make it. The Sisters in The Nation of Islam are rocking their garments confidently and setting the standard for what it means to dress and be modest.

“What a person is wearing can either bring their confidence down or boost it.”

– Sister Tanzania X

Sister Tanzania continues with reflections of her confidence while wearing her garment, “As for me, mine was at an all time high. I walked different, my smile was different, even my energy level changed. Prior to getting ready for the weekly Wednesday evening study group at The Final Call, it was like soon as I put my garment on my energy changed from blah to queen. I think that’s because our garments represent self respect, obedience, courage which is natural for us as women.

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Sister Tanzania and Sister Christian

What’s the difference between being beautiful and naturally beautiful? 

“Being naturally beautiful to me means being yourself and blocking out what the outside world thinks of what you’re wearing and how you look. Beautiful means you may have to put in a bit more effort to achieve a certain look rather than when you’re natural it just flows”, says Sister Tanzania.

“Understand that our primary goal as women is to be beautiful. Yes, you read it right. Our primary goal in life is to be beautiful. Now you see why you are almost obsessed with your appearance, while men seem to care nothing about theirs… The desire to be beautiful is innate; it was programmed into our DNA by the First God Who Created Himself in and from the triple darkness of space.”

-Sister Dr. Ava Muhammad, Naturally Beautiful

Although being beautiful is a primary goal for the woman, we must not get carried away in the physical beauty, as much. When we work more on our mental and spiritual being our physical appearance will simultaneously enhance.

When the three wombs are properly healed and nurtured, we attract higher vibrations and will receive the best of compliments.

Sister Tanzania says, “While wearing my garment I received more respectful feedback rather than lustful. Overall my spirit is on a more positive level because I didn’t have to worry about attracting any unwanted attention.”

I noticed that I’m treated different when I’m in my garment. Sometimes I don’t like it that way because I deserve the same high respect that I get with or without the garment. I am human. I am a woman. I am still your Sister. I encourage everyone to respect women all over the world regardless of creed, class or color, and regardless of what she’s wearing.

One of the questions we receive: where can I get your outfit?

Garments are for registered Sisters in The Nation of Islam, referred to as M.G.T. & G.C.C. No other woman or organization has our garments, especially not the headpiece.

Sister Tanzania says, “Buying clothes from a store doesn’t compare to a garment. I whole heartedly  believe that when wearing our modest clothes, we represent God and also the talents of the person who made it. This isn’t regular clothing. My garments are tailor made and crafted by very talented women.”

Sister Tanzania supports the following Sisters who are also registered members in The Nation of Islam and who are passionate about modesty. They desire women to see the beauty in modest fashions and have turned that will into a brand and company for women all over the world.

 

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Sister Tanzania wearing a garment purchased by Sister Shimah Muhammad

 

Sister Tanzania continues, “First and foremost all praises are due to Allah for (RE)conditioning the way I choose to dress. I also give thanks to the sisters for assisting me. My loving husband has also been a huge support with my transformation.

There are many reasons why women in the NOI wear modest clothing. We are always on a mission to represent God. Ask yourself would He be pleased with what you’re wearing? Being attracted to someone because of physical appearance will eventually fade away. We should strive to be drawn to people because of their knowledge and genuine love. Motivating black women to cover ourselves is one of the many responsibilities of wearing a garment.

I wear my headpiece proudly, it gives me a sense of protection that I’ve never felt before. When I wear my headpiece, I notice people think twice about acting or talking a certain way around me. I had a hard time covering my hair when I first came into the NOI because I always loved getting my hair done and showing it off but now I loveeeee wearing my headpiece and still slay.”

I love that Sister Tanzania is open about having a hard time covering her hair initially. Going back to the primary need we have to be beautiful: Initially it can seem as if covering our hair is taking away beauty, but now I see it as something that enhances my beauty. Now, that I understand my hair is an adornment (1 Peter 3:3), I’m happy to cover. I no longer have a need to show my hairstyles to everyone. I know that all of my beauty is for me and my future husband.

In comparison to a lot of first moments, why did you want to share this one with Facebook?

“I chose to share this moment with Facebook because I no longer cared about what anyone would say, who would judge, nor if I would lose friends or family. Publicly revealing my transition to the world was not only a step closer to Allah it was a step closer toward loving myself more.”

Sister Tanzania concludes with: “My life has drastically changed since I’ve came in to The Teachings of The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad. Learning how to cook, sew, take care of my husband and rear my children properly just to name a few of our seven units has made such an impact on them, as well. It is through me that they are able to obtain a healthy and loving home. I’m forever grateful and honored to be an M.G.T.”

Follow your dreams by the season, not by your passion.

On Wednesday, November 22, I reflected on when I joined The Nation of Islam. The Genesis of our journey, is a constant reflection that we should take the time to understand. As Sister Saron X from the UK shared, “We must always remember our Genesis as individuals, it holds so many keys to where Allah is taking us and our purpose!”

Before coming into the knowledge of self, I was heavily involved in acting. It was my life. I was on my way towards becoming a full-time actress. It’s what I wanted and what I seen for myself in my youth, on stage sharing a message.

Now that I’ve learned more about my purpose, my journey, and what Allah (God) is preparing me for, I want to share a piece of it with you. My hope is that you reflect and see what parts of this puzzle resonate.

The CharmerDuring my first Saviours’ Day of 2014 with the theme, “How Strong Is The Foundation; Can We Survive?”, there was a Special Documentary Presentation of The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan titled “Let’s Change the World: My Life Journey Through Music” that forever changed my life. During the documentary, he shared his love for music and how he gave up his passion to accept his assignment (those are not his words, but my way of describing some of what I took from it). I had a constant flow of tears that would not stop. I knew I was at the right place at the right time, but I did not understand The Time that we were and currently in. I was digesting what was being given to me. I couldn’t really gather my thoughts, but I was so thankful. I felt something in my being come alive and in that moment, all I wanted to do was help that man. Not necessarily the man on the screen, The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan. I wanted to help his teacher, The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad, but the reality is that I wanted to grow close to the man who helped them become who they are and are continuing to grow into, which is Allah (God), Who appeared to us in The Person of Master Fard Muhammad. In that moment though, all I could think was, “what a beautiful introduction, what a beautiful gift it is to learn about a man who has made many of sacrifices to (do more than) serve a Nation”. I silently asked, “Where have I been? Why am I just learning about The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan and The Nation of Islam”?

The documentary is not available for you to watch. However, in The Time And What Must Be Done, Part 7, The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan shares his experience of the sacrifice he made.

I know that’s a lot, but it’s important for me to share those thoughts (that experience) because it leads to dreams, seasons, and passions. If you’re interested, I ask you to take your time reading this and, as always, I ask you to reflect on your own journey.

After the Wednesday youth lecture at The Final Call, I started thinking about my love for acting and why Allah showed me the documentary upon my introduction. In that moment, I learned that it was time to put my acting on hold, in order to soak up this new beginning. Not because I am The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan. I understand that’s clearly not the case. One thing that’s for sure, I’ve always been the type of person to find connections between what’s happening now and what occurred in the past.

 

So, I started thinking about how Allah (God) has always put me in situations that caused me to be aberrant in search for what could be my type. I was looking for my type because amongst all of the family and people surrounding me in school, I always felt apart from them and my love for acting made me feel as if I was cultivating something in me. When I was on stage, I was able to connect with people (the cast, crew, and the audience) and those who I was portraying caused me to learn more about self. There was so much going on in my life that I didn’t understand. The scripts allowed me to wear the shoes of others and I decided to take time to understand their circumstances. It was like putting my problems on pause to dive into the dilemmas of humanity that no one wanted to speak of, but that folks wanted to be entertained with. Acting was a commitment I made. I had to give up a part of me in order to bring out what the playwright and directors wanted. The duty that I gave to be in plays affected the time that I had with family and friends. This was the first time I realized that I had to choose what was important to me, even if it meant that it would cause disappointment because I couldn’t always be in the presence of those I love.

Read the full article from this video here.

I hope you’re following. When I joined The Nation of Islam, I had plenty of people questioning my character and choices for what was about to change everything. The more I attended meetings, I started infusing what I learned into my life and realized this was all I ever had time for. I was supposed to be signing up for my next acting class, so I could start auditioning for plays and to finally be behind the camera for film productions. However, I’d began studying Student Enrollment, so that I could recite and devote my life for a cause that would require me to look at all of the (split) characters inside of self. Allah (God) was telling me that I could no longer focus on the lives of others. In fact, he said that you cannot help anyone, until you start looking at and dealing with yourself as priority. Just as I would shut everything out to learn my lines, I started learning about history and unpacking who I am.

When I gave up acting, I told Allah (God) that I’d put my dream on hold to receive what He has for me and that if He gave me the opportunity to act again, I would do so with intentional purpose. Well, I recently realized that Allah has been telling me, it’s time to utilize my gift of acting to touch the masses.

I had a dream on Wednesday. I seen this group of singers on stage and there was one who didn’t feel comfortable with the people that she was working with because it was causing her to deviate from the assignment that was set for her. Once she started singing for the right purposes, she felt alive again. So she had to carefully choose the people who were going to be in her corner, on her team, and be very selective in the projects that she would use her gift for and give her time to. When she followed instructions, her assignment became clear, but she had to go through multiple seasons (trials) to understand. However, in the end her gift impacted many and most of all she was genuinely happy and sane.

This dream does not appear to be deep. No, I did not travel or go to some high place. However, if we can begin to take lessons from “regular” dreams, then the mind can go anywhere. Start simple and stay simple as you’re revealed more.

Upon waking up, I smiled because I knew Allah (God) was using the dream to give me another sign of what time it is for my life. He gave His approval and another sign confirming what I can do for His Mission.

If I wasn’t willing to give up acting in the past, I wouldn’t have become so in love with me and continuing at the time would have only caused my acting to fall flat. I didn’t give up something that I wasn’t good at. My very first play and my last, I won an award for. Acting wasn’t just some hobby. I know I could’ve made a lot of money in the industry. However, I probably would have become a product of society, instead of a civilized person who God is shaping to be His co-creator.

Now, I have a message to share that I couldn’t have done without Supreme Wisdom. I had to realize that I must be a full-time servant of God and always put myself second to Him. In The Nation of Islam, I found “my type”. Yes, at times I have to remove myself from others, but solitude is how we were created in the womb, so oneness (time with God and self) is what we need to workout our salvation.

What dreams do you have? What season are you in? Are there some people that you need to allow to FALL back, so you can SPRING ahead? Because of the season you’re in, what do you have to sacrifice? Are you able to focus on the mission and be passionate about what assignment you have in this season? As the seasons change, no matter if you’re able to activate the gift you have in mind, will you be able to find the passion that you have, so that you’re working for the greater good? And when the weather (condition) of the season starts showing you that it’s time to pursue your dream, will you be ready to actively put your gifts to use, as the calamities come?

What’s the benefit of good deeds when done out of season? You may be passionate about something or have a gift to give, but if it’s shared at the wrong time, then it won’t serve anyone well. Therefore, we have to ground ourselves, get a Red Jasper crystal, gain control over what we’re passionate about and learn how to activate the passion at the right time because if we don’t we will harm ourselves and maybe others. We all have a role to fulfill and when we’re not being dutiful, we delay the process of a collective development.

Everyone may not understand your choices, but it’s not for them to understand. This is your journey. People may think you’re changing and they may take that in a negative way, but something that I keep in mind is: What everyone can’t see is that I am a new being, but I am the person who is blossoming into everything that I need to become.

Acting was the seed I needed to cultivate strength. The Teachings nourished me and prepared me for the garden Allah is producing. 

There was a time when I devoted my life to acting, now I devote my life to live for a divine purpose.

What are you living for and doing in this season?

My Second Degree Burn Testimony & Spiritual Burnout Story

If someone was to burn you would you thank them? Can you see the beauty in your injury/scars?

In the video you’ll hear me refer to the burn as third degree, but after reviewing the pictures, I think it was a second degree burn. Nevertheless, the experience still counts.

Watch the video to hear how the burn has changed my life:

I Love Me: a checklist for loving self

When is the last time you said “I love you”?

Not to anyone else. When was the last time you said ‘I love me’?

What have you done to show your love for self today?

We’re going to go through a series of questions and I want you to reflect on the answers. I mean really take some time to study you! Take some time to watch the video for specifics.

  • How are you caring for yourself today?
  • Have you looked at yourself like you look at your crush?
  • Did you really look at yourself in the mirror today?
  • Did you lotion yourself today?
  • Did you take some time to condition your hair? Yes, brother you too!
  • Did you clean your space?
  • What did you feed yourself today?
  • How are you healing yourself?
  • Did you right a wrong?
  • How are you putting yourself first?
  • How are you fighting for you?
  • How are you advocating for you?
  • What are you going to work on today to make progress towards a goal?
  • Do you have a bulletin with your vision boards on there?
  • Did you pray today?
  • Did you have a moment of solitude? A moment of silence? A moment with only you and God? Your Higher Power?
  • Did you you place your hand over your heart to understand your pace today?
  • Did you affirm yourself?
  • Did you smile?
  • Did you hug yourself today?

Questions specifically for sisters

  • When’s the last time you admired your natural hair? 
    • Brothers, did you rub that bald head of yours? I’m serious, rub your fade. Your fro. Those locks. Rub your hair, Rub your fingers through those locs, whatever you got.
  • Did you do your hair, even if it’s covered?
  • When’s the last time you wore zero make-up and looked at yourself like oh my god!
  • Have you talked to your womb today? Pregnant or not?

There are so many other questions that can be added. This is just a start. Watch the video for reflections. 


Honestly, I enjoyed recording this video because we are so far from loving ourselves. I hope and pray we get back to internal peace and love.

Trust in Your Higher Power & Pray Straight Words

There’s no better way to start your Monday off other than praising your Higher Power, thanking him for your mercy, and following through on the word/message.

All of us living have our “ups” and “downs”. Whoever your Higher Power is that you praise and worship hears your cries and your prayers. When the fire comes down on you and times get tough or get the best of you. Your higher power is shaping you for what he has prepared you for. Most times when something GOOD doesn’t come out that fire, it’s because you didn’t follow their instructions.

MEANING you didn’t stop cheating on your significant other, you didn’t let go of that bad seed you call your friend, you missed out on an opportunity because you didn’t think you were qualified, or you thought you were untouchable, so you abused a blessing and used it to deceive others.

Out of every dark tunnel in your life, at the end of that tunnel there’s light.

But first, you have to come to the end of YOURSELF. Meaning you have to surrender yourself and give it all to your Higher Power.

MEANING You have to know in your heart not only through GOOD times but also through BAD times that your Higher Power favors you and He chose you to go through whatever it is to test your strength and your belief. 

Now when coming to yourself it may take more work than you can imagine. You may think awe naw it’s getting too hard I’m gone give up, awe naw this can’t be real. I’m not gone put that much energy in it, awe man this can’t be for me I’m not deserving of this. WHAT YOU SHOULD BE THINKING is “Why not me? Use me Higher Power, show me what I am deserving of.”

HERE’S MY TESTIMONY…..HERES MY TRUTH….SEE I CAN BE HONEST BECAUSE I’M NOT ASHAMED OF WHO I AM AND I DON’T SHY AWAY FROM MY BLESSINGS.

I thought I can never have children, per the doctor, per my body, and per my mind because that seed was sat in my brain. Now, I pray and asked my higher power, I just want to bless my significant other with a child. I think he would be a great father. We are good people and we want a baby.

NOW, I went into depression mode when I found out I was pregnant. I did because I wasn’t married. I didn’t have a house. You know the essentials I thought was fit for us to have in order to raise a child up to our expectations.

See I wasn’t specific. I didn’t say, “Higher Power when I get married with a house and luxury car I want to bless my significant other with a child. SO GUESS WHAT…..my Higher Power blessed me with a child to bless my significant other, despite what the doctor said right…BUT WAIT.

Now, during my pregnancy I was sick EVERYDAY, practically the entire pregnancy. I was so sick I wanted to terminate my pregnancy, shame on me right, but wait I’m not done.

My Higher Power said, “Wait isn’t this what you wanted? You asked me for a baby, so I blessed you with a pregnancy. You didn’t say you wanted to be healthy through your pregnancy, you didn’t ask me to wait, until after you were married. I only did what you asked me.” So I thought to myself, “this is correct.” So I prayed and prayed and prayed for strength in my relationship, strength in my understanding, strength in my religion.

Now, at the end of that tunnel look what my Higher Power has done. I have a very handsome and very INTELLIGENT two-year old blessing. Now, I’m engaged to be married, our credit scores are increasing for us to get the house and cars we are deserving of.

So my questions to you are:

  • What are you asking for?
  • Are you being specific?
  • Are you ready to be placed in the fire?
  • Are you ready to come to the end of yourself to receive your blessings?

In my case my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ is my Higher Power. It’s time you find yours.


Written by Linzetta Favors.

Darrion Skinner: Reversing Homosexual Lifestyle

As a part of the homosexual agenda, when someone is coming out or being introduced to this lifestyle, they’re often told, “You’re not harming anyone, you’re loving someone” (Darrion shares), as a way of justifying the guilty conscious that this person may have. However, no matter what we want say to justify it, engaging in acts of homosexuality is not what God has for us.

I recently listened to Darrion Skinner’s story of his previous homosexual lifestyle and thought it needed to be shared with the world. One of the biggest takeaways that Darrion said is:

“Making the decision to live the same sex lifestyle robbed me… It added destruction to my life.”

As I was listening to Darrion’s story, I wondered who was there as a guide as he was growing up and he shared, “There was never anyone there to mentor and cultivate me.” When we reflect on those who “act out” we have to ask ourselves who do they have to look to as an example. Then, we have to reflect on what it was like for this person in their childhood. At the age of six, at a family gathering, a cousin helped Darrion in the restroom, and this was the first time Darrion was molested in a sodomising act that he enjoyed.

This new found sexual act (molestation that even happened at church) resulted in a spiral change in his behavior and he had a difficult time being able to enjoy life. Yes, he had wins, but he took more unnecessary l’s.

Darrion completed high school and military training, however, due to physical altercations surrounding being involved with the same sex, he was not able to attend what was supposed to be graduation celebrations to recognize his accomplishments. As he shared,“Same sex, it makes you do irrational and illogical things.” and at that time Darrion didn’t realize his decisions were not wise, which resulted to receiving his diploma in the mail. Darrion says,“It’s not a gift, it’s all about the choices you’re making.” However, are we aware of the decisions we’re making when our life is not in accord with God’s will?

Darrion mentioned, “God always had His hand on my life… always giving me the choice to go with him or go with myself.” Facts, no matter what sin, we actively choose to indulge in, God will give us multiple opportunities to accept His hand. When we decide to be a so-called adult, we begin to live for ourselves. Even when we don’t accept God’s hand, it does not mean, God leaves our life. It means that He will utilize different tactics, one being showing Himself in other vessels. Darrion, shared that he had multiple people show Him mercy over the course of him engaging in same sex relationships. “In spite of my dumb decisions, they still wanted to see the good in me… She was a place of warning (his spiritual mom)… He disciplined me in a loving way (I can’t recall who this was).” It’s important for anyone who has taken a detour in their life to be shown love. Oftentimes, when we go off track, there are people who shut us out, but in most cases, this is what keeps us away. So I encourage you to be there for your loved ones in their time of need, even when they’re not taking heed.

“With that lifestyle there’s always jealousy, there’s never enough… I had that urge that was never quenched.” After numerous challenges, Darrion realized he always wanted more and that what he was yearning for wasn’t actually his lustful desires.

“I had God’s protection because he had a plan for me”, says Darrien. The only way you’re going to get more of what you’ve been putting out is by giving to God. Darrien finally realized homosexuality wasn’t the best for him and that it was temporary comfort. He’s a living testimony and is someone who reversed the homosexual lifestyle for a relationship with God.

Personal Testimonies of Reversing Homosexual Lifestyles

There’s a homosexual agenda, where LGBT+ is appearing as fair seeming. However, after experiencing same sex relationships, some come into an understanding that this lifestyle is not natural and that it was putting them in a condition of hell.

DJAWP will share testimonies to show homosexuality is a choice and not God’s purpose for you. Although DJAWP is not homophobia or transphobia, we are not judging anyone’s lifestyle, we just do not support LGBT+. In addition, every person’s story that is shared does not mean we have the same spiritual beliefs. We just want the truth to be known. Homosexuals are looking for something they hope to find in the same sex, but the truth is their desires never go met.

The big question is: what causes homosexual relationships? There are themes in the stories that we will unpack. 

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Resist The Homosexual Agenda.

Watch Resist, Rebel, Reclaim where Brother Marcellus X exposes the homosexual agenda.

“It’s not the new Black. Homosexuality is new to Blacks.”

– Brother Marcellus X


Watch Darrion Skinner’s story.

Darrion was molested by multiple members of his family. The first instance was at the age of six when a cousin helped him utilize the restroom. One sodomising act turned into serval more encounters that became a lifestyle of his. Today, he is no longer living a homosexual lifestyle. Learn more here.