Reusable Cloth Pad Review & Usage

Tampons never. Pads forevermore.

I’ve tried so many pads and because menses and I have an ongoing relationship, I’ll continue finding what works best for us. As in any relationship, as the commitment deepens, changes need to be made for better alignment in communication. For now, there are two things that work best for us, Cherish and Reusable Cloth Pads. What do you need to ensure you and your yoni are in alignment?

Honestly, I prefer the reusable method. It may sound nasty. In fact, when I first heard about them, I thought they were one of the nastiest inventions. Although, I thought negatively about them, I was still curious to know about the product. The more resourceful I become, I gain a more efficient approach to life and overall make more logical and practical decisions for the long-term.

Are reusable cloth pads unsanitary?

I started thinking to myself why do I think this is nasty? I wear clothes, I clean them, and then re-wear them. I wear undergarments, I clean them, and then re-wear them. And let’s have a very truthful moment: as a young girl and even now as a woman, menses calls for mistakes (I’ll let you fill in the blanks), so what is the problem with a reusable cloth? You wash your body with your towels, clean them, and reuse them. So again, what is the problem? I really started to ask myself. And I came up with nothing. Then, I said, “you can’t knock it until you try it”. And that’s what got me Amazon boxes at my door. Boxes because when I shop on Amazon, I can’t just buy one thing, but back on topic, I go…

After my last conversation with a sister about purchasing cloth diapers for her baby girl (one of the reasons why I had multiple boxes), I finally realized that it was time for me to invest in cloth pads.

How do I manage the reuse process?

When I first got them, I was in awe. I literally touched them (yes! I needed to immediately know what my yoni would experience), then I folded them to see how they could fit into the “wet” bag to understand how to carry them in public. I think it’s important to experiment before you actually begin using them.

  1. I recommend you to wash the pads first because we don’t know who touched them during the packaging process, which is something that can’t be done with disposable pads that you buy in the store or online. We know someone touched them – No matter how chemical free they are. If you’re cleaning them in the washer, I recommend you using liquid laundry detergent because powder may stick, as it tends to do with blankets and similar materials. If you are hand washing, it should be fine because the powder shall not get caught in cracks, as what happens in the machine. Or if you’re hand washing, feel free to use the same soaps you use on your vulva. I do caution the hand wash approach as a complete clean (send questions for specific reasons). Ensure you ring the cloth pads out multiple times, you’ll notice why. This is strongly recommended before placing in the washer.
  2. After washing them, properly store them in your “wet” bag. You want to keep them closed, similar to how you would find packaged pads. Fold and button with the yoni part tucked away. I know laundry is infinite and some days are hard to fold clothes, but don’t leave the cloth pads out in the open. You want to put these away to reduce any exposure, just as you should with your undergarments.
  3. Once you’re wearing them, change as you see fit. I can’t give you a timeframe because you know what works for you, your body, and your cleanliness routines. However, I suggest that the time does not exceed two hours.
  4. If you’re out, put a regular sized sandwich or paper bag in the part of the bag that you plan to hold your wet cloths of the “wet” bag. My bag has two zippers – one for fresh and wet cloths. I decided to carry a sandwich bag or the bag that the cloth pads were originally packaged in (I told you, I’m resourceful) to seal the wet cloths to ensure my menses aren’t being exposed, as much as I could and to avoid any messes. This honestly isn’t a messy process (though I thought it would be).
  5. If/once you’re home, wash wet cloths and store in a proper place. I clean my wet cloths in the shower with cold/warm water and a washable sponge to rinse the menses, as a way to avoid stains, and then let them dry the same way face towels do. When washing, be sure to ring out the pads multiple times. Then, I wash again in the washer machine for an efficient clean with towels, as mentioned later. If you’re uncomfortable with cleaning your cloths in the shower or in the sink, then store them in a container with cold/warm water that can hold as many as possible between usage and laundry time. I don’t recommend the pads to sit in the container for a long period of time. I’ll leave the timeframe up for your judgement. If you decide to go this route, I recommend you washing the container each time you empty it. Again, I wouldn’t go this route (it doesn’t align with being clean to me), but I noticed some cloth users prefer this method.
  6. Wash the pads and reuse. Initially, I washed the pads with towels prior to use. I did so because that was what I needed to clean at the time of delivery. However, after analyzing, I think that makes the most of sense (since they’re similar) and I continue with that process. Or you can wash them along with all of your undergarments together in one load.
  7. Repeat steps 1-6.

If you think of different methods feel free to suggest in the comments or email us here. You may leave a comment anonymously. If you try cloth pads, we want to know what you think. Let us know if you want to share your story.

Why reusable pads are encouraged

  • Environmentally friendly
  • Economically smart
  • Love and respect for your yoni

Environmentally friendly

In some cases, I despise recycling. I only have a problem with recycling because most store brought pads are made from recycled plastics or worse. Have you heard of the phrase, “transforming waste into wealth”? Would you consider it to be permissible for someone to go into your recycling bin, make pads out of what you had in this dirty environment, while also adding chemicals, and then selling them to you? You wouldn’t like this? Then why are you still buying trash pads? Reusable cloth pads is environmentally friendly because you’re in control of the environment.

Economically smart

How much do you spend on pads per month? Are you purchasing in bulk? Probably not because there aren’t any good brands that you can stock up on. If you’re still using trash pads, I will share a tip that you can purchase Always in bulk at Sam’s Club, but know they are in no shape or form good for your body.

Love and respect your yoni

I recommend reusable cloth pads because as a woman, you’re going to need pads for as long as you and your menses are in a committed relationship. So why not serve your yoni and pockets (coins) right?

If you love yourself, you will invest in self. Invest in cloth pads and you won’t have to purchase another pad in years, unless you just love having a collection of cloth pads like women love having a line of (under)garments, which by chance they’re really pretty. They even have some cute designs for your girls, yes purchase these for your daughters and save so much money! Better yet, you and your daughter can sew these together.

Last, historically we were using cloth pads. Let’s get back to our roots.

Time for the review 

I love them. They are very comfortable to sleep in (may I mention that was the first time I wore them). They are the softest things ever. Another very truthful moment, I don’t sweat with these. One of the major reasons why I don’t like pads, but tampons were and will never be an option for me.

The wings don’t move. Y’know? Scrape against your thigh (ouch! sometimes this can be a pain). The pad doesn’t twist and turn? Nope. Everything stays in place. No matter how much I move. I can run, dance, participate in martial arts, yoga, you name it, and my cloth pad will still be where I placed it (as long as you’re wearing the proper lady garments, but if you’re not aware, we are happy to specify). And if I place it wrong, I can shift it, button it and go. Unlike “sticky” pads and wings, once you remove them to fix the placement, they’re either bundled up or just like what the heck; it’s time to get a new one.

Shall I go on? I took the time to type this, so you must know how much I love them because I have the desire to share.

I would wear them everyday!

Pantyliners? What? These are my new liners. Cloth pads come as a pantyliner version, as well. There are different sizes to match your comfort and flow.

Which brand do I recommend? 

I order from Teamoy via Amazon for the Prime benefits.

If you order large, you will get a large pad similar to the overnight pads or off-brand large. So they should be long enough for your active duties.

Any other questions?

Well, they may be a little too personal, so just reach out to me. You may contact us here.


Thank you for visiting Documented Journey, until next time.

Navy Bean Smoothie/Shake

“You put beans in there?”, says everyone who doesn’t know the power of the navy bean.

This Saviours’ Day, The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan let us know that it is now law to eat one meal a day.

With slim Sisters and Brothers striving to obey, there are some concerns regarding weight. Some of us are mentioning the need for protein shakes, but whey and other powders are not healthy. The alternative is what? The navy bean.

Last year, I fell off from the suggested one meal a day plan, so when Ramadan came, I felt the need to find ways to get more protein. I know the navy bean has the most protein, so I searched for ways for the bean to fill me. This is when I heard about navy bean smoothies. Initially, the thought sounded disgusting, but then I started thinking about bean pie and said this has to be delicious.

This year, I returned to eating every 48-hours and the need for more protein hasn’t been the problem. But now that I gave up chips and sweets for Lent, I wanted a quick fix that wouldn’t cause me to break the fast. So I returned to the navy bean smoothie or shake (whatever you want to call it). I’m so thankful for the navy bean. It allows you to be creative and healthy, all while feeding that sweet tooth.

Are you looking for a healthy protein shake? If so, this may be for you.


Banana & Cinnamon

1 banana

1/2 cup of frozen navy beans

1/2 or 1/3 cup of milk

Cinnamon to your liking

Apples, Bananas, & Cinnamon

1 apple

1 banana

1/2 cup of frozen navy beans

1 cup of milk

Cinnamon to your liking

Sweetener options

  • Blueberry agave (it’s honestly worse than honey)
  • Organic honey
  • Dates
  • You can add chocolate (you’re going to love it)
  • I honestly rarely add any sweeteners. The fruit should be all of the flavor you need.

I use whole milk. Once, I ran out of whole milk and used my family’s nasty unsweetened almond milk *laughs* (it was actually good). However, I recommend raw milk. The amount of milk depends on how thick you prefer it. The consistency is your choice!

I don’t measure cinnamon, as you can see, sometimes I go a little overboard. I love cinnamon. It’s good for inflammation and much more.

Frozen navy beans are recommended, so you can avoid adding ice. Ice will make your smoothie/shake watery.

I encourage you to drink this within 20- 30-minutes after your meal to ensure nutrients digest properly. That’s all for now. If you give it a try, let me know how you like it.


Thank you for reading and visiting Documented Journey.

Wearing a garment is naturally beautiful.

On a typical moment of scrolling on Facebook, I smiled when I noticed a Sister expressing her love for wearing a garment. In my elation, I had to stop and read her post. In it she was sharing how thankful she was to have and wear a garment that is instructed for Sisters who are registered members in The Nation of Islam (NOI) under The Teachings of The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad.Screen Shot 2018-02-16 at 11.02.28 AM


I truly love being in my garment, so when I see the same appreciation in other Sisters, it just makes me smile inside. To know that Sisters feel comfortable and that they’re being their true selves, while being completely covered. Most of all, the garment is a sign of obedience – it’s pleasing to Allah (God).

Sister Tanzania says, “People wear clothing to express themselves to show their sense of fashion. Wearing a garment isn’t something a lot of women are willing to do. Being in a wicked society, tight and revealing clothes is the trend.”

Is tight and revealing clothing the trend? 

I beg your pardon. I think not. I agree with Sister Tanzania – being of this world will make us think that our undergarments are permissible to wear. Tights and leggings have become the new pants. Undergarments have become a part of the attire of many for the rest of the world to see, but the reality is it shows that we don’t understand what beauty is or what it means to value ourselves as a woman.

A trend is what we make it. The Sisters in The Nation of Islam are rocking their garments confidently and setting the standard for what it means to dress and be modest.

“What a person is wearing can either bring their confidence down or boost it.”

– Sister Tanzania X

Sister Tanzania continues with reflections of her confidence while wearing her garment, “As for me, mine was at an all time high. I walked different, my smile was different, even my energy level changed. Prior to getting ready for the weekly Wednesday evening study group at The Final Call, it was like soon as I put my garment on my energy changed from blah to queen. I think that’s because our garments represent self respect, obedience, courage which is natural for us as women.

Tanzi & Christian
Sister Tanzania and Sister Christian

What’s the difference between being beautiful and naturally beautiful? 

“Being naturally beautiful to me means being yourself and blocking out what the outside world thinks of what you’re wearing and how you look. Beautiful means you may have to put in a bit more effort to achieve a certain look rather than when you’re natural it just flows”, says Sister Tanzania.

“Understand that our primary goal as women is to be beautiful. Yes, you read it right. Our primary goal in life is to be beautiful. Now you see why you are almost obsessed with your appearance, while men seem to care nothing about theirs… The desire to be beautiful is innate; it was programmed into our DNA by the First God Who Created Himself in and from the triple darkness of space.”

-Sister Dr. Ava Muhammad, Naturally Beautiful

Although being beautiful is a primary goal for the woman, we must not get carried away in the physical beauty, as much. When we work more on our mental and spiritual being our physical appearance will simultaneously enhance.

When the three wombs are properly healed and nurtured, we attract higher vibrations and will receive the best of compliments.

Sister Tanzania says, “While wearing my garment I received more respectful feedback rather than lustful. Overall my spirit is on a more positive level because I didn’t have to worry about attracting any unwanted attention.”

I noticed that I’m treated different when I’m in my garment. Sometimes I don’t like it that way because I deserve the same high respect that I get with or without the garment. I am human. I am a woman. I am still your Sister. I encourage everyone to respect women all over the world regardless of creed, class or color, and regardless of what she’s wearing.

One of the questions we receive: where can I get your outfit?

Garments are for registered Sisters in The Nation of Islam, referred to as M.G.T. & G.C.C. No other woman or organization has our garments, especially not the headpiece.

Sister Tanzania says, “Buying clothes from a store doesn’t compare to a garment. I whole heartedly  believe that when wearing our modest clothes, we represent God and also the talents of the person who made it. This isn’t regular clothing. My garments are tailor made and crafted by very talented women.”

Sister Tanzania supports the following Sisters who are also registered members in The Nation of Islam and who are passionate about modesty. They desire women to see the beauty in modest fashions and have turned that will into a brand and company for women all over the world.

 

Tanzi 2
Sister Tanzania wearing a garment purchased by Sister Shimah Muhammad

 

Sister Tanzania continues, “First and foremost all praises are due to Allah for (RE)conditioning the way I choose to dress. I also give thanks to the sisters for assisting me. My loving husband has also been a huge support with my transformation.

There are many reasons why women in the NOI wear modest clothing. We are always on a mission to represent God. Ask yourself would He be pleased with what you’re wearing? Being attracted to someone because of physical appearance will eventually fade away. We should strive to be drawn to people because of their knowledge and genuine love. Motivating black women to cover ourselves is one of the many responsibilities of wearing a garment.

I wear my headpiece proudly, it gives me a sense of protection that I’ve never felt before. When I wear my headpiece, I notice people think twice about acting or talking a certain way around me. I had a hard time covering my hair when I first came into the NOI because I always loved getting my hair done and showing it off but now I loveeeee wearing my headpiece and still slay.”

I love that Sister Tanzania is open about having a hard time covering her hair initially. Going back to the primary need we have to be beautiful: Initially it can seem as if covering our hair is taking away beauty, but now I see it as something that enhances my beauty. Now, that I understand my hair is an adornment (1 Peter 3:3), I’m happy to cover. I no longer have a need to show my hairstyles to everyone. I know that all of my beauty is for me and my future husband.

In comparison to a lot of first moments, why did you want to share this one with Facebook?

“I chose to share this moment with Facebook because I no longer cared about what anyone would say, who would judge, nor if I would lose friends or family. Publicly revealing my transition to the world was not only a step closer to Allah it was a step closer toward loving myself more.”

Sister Tanzania concludes with: “My life has drastically changed since I’ve came in to The Teachings of The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad. Learning how to cook, sew, take care of my husband and rear my children properly just to name a few of our seven units has made such an impact on them, as well. It is through me that they are able to obtain a healthy and loving home. I’m forever grateful and honored to be an M.G.T.”

Psalm 1: Reflections

Psalm 1

Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor standeth in the way of sinners, nor sitteth in the seat of the scornful.

But his delight is in the law of the Lord; and in his law doth he meditate day and night.

And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither; and whatsoever he doeth shall prosper.

The ungodly are not so: but are like the chaff which the wind driveth away.

Therefore the ungodly shall not stand in the judgment, nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous.

For the Lord knoweth the way of the righteous: but the way of the ungodly shall perish.

Reference: Bible Gateway



Who and what is the company you keep? Do they reflect who you want to become?

Counsel: 1) advice; opinion or instruction given in directing the judgment or conduct of another. 2) interchange of opinions as to future procedure; consultation; deliberation. 4) deliberate purpose; plan; design.

Are you constantly hearing/reading their thoughts? If so, you’re seeking counsel from them regardless if you’ve asked for it or not. Think about what’s in your social media feed – is that the type of counsel you need? Do they reflect who you want and need to be? Do they reflect God?

Look at your five closest friends. Those five friends are who you are. If you dont like who you are, then you know what you have to do.

-Will Smith

I think it’s important to first focus on who the people are in our circle/cypher. Why? Because we can start clearing the clutter, it’ll allow us to think clearer, which leads to making better decisions.

Whenever we want to make change, we must first clear our minds. It’s hard to think clear when you have a lot going on in your environment or when your environment doesn’t match where you’re aiming to go. So now that we understand that there is a need to clean up house, let’s do some work on self.

Sin: 1) transgression of divine law 4) to commit a sinful act 5) to offend against a principle, standard, etc.

Transgression: violation of a law; command

Transgressor: to violate a law, command, moral code, etc.; offend; sin. 2) to pass over or go beyond

From the womb, we are born into a world of sin. With divine intervention, we are reared according to God’s Law (no matter the age that we begin to tap into our Father), which excludes us from being of this world (John 17:16), but when we step out of what we’ve been taught and exceed limits, we become unhappy, feeling as if there is no peace. Peace comes with living righteously because that is what gives us a clear conscious.

The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan teaches “The righteous love the the discipline of God.” If this is true, which we know it is, then that means the ungodly are those who go against The Law and justifies what God makes clear of right and wrong.

This first verse reminds us that the blessed man is the righteous. What have we done right lately and what have we comprised, according to The Law?

What is the law of the Lord?

That’s a loaded question. Let’s start with The Minister’s words.

“All growth is change, and that pattern of growth and change is dictated and directed by the evolutionary law of God that exists in nature and in all of His creation. We call Him, in English, The Lord. In Arabic the word for Lord is Rabb. From that you get Rabbi, or teacher, nurturer. Rabb means, as an attribute of God, one who nourishes a thing, making it attain stage after stage until it reaches its eventual perfection. But it is the Lord Who set that law into motion. That law is in existence for all living things; and we live in a universe of life that is constantly undergoing change.”

– The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan, Accept The Challenge to Change

Change: to transform or convert

Therefore, that means we are required to change, to be in a constant state of transformation. Law is motion. We must always be moving in the direction that will bring us closer to Allah (God).

How do we do live according to The Law and implement what we learn? We must first have faith. We know faith without works is dead (James 2:14-26). In order to do the work of God, we must be obedient. Therefore, it’s required of us to be faithful and obedient in our works. While we work, we must remember to do unto others as we would have others do unto us. That’s the duty of the righteous and continue practicing selah.

Selah: praise and meditation

Delighta high degree of pleasure or enjoyment; joy; rapture

Are we pleasing to Allah (God)? Have we prayed? A morning reminder that I like to send is:

Pray before you scroll.

It is what I have to tell myself. It’s more than a thank you to God that you say when you rollover. Again, I’m talking to myself.

Meditate: 1) to engage in thought or contemplation; reflect. 2) to engage in transcendental meditation, devout religious contemplation, or quiescent spiritual introspection. 3) to consider as something to be done or effected; intend; purpose

Prayer is a part of meditation and meditation is a part of prayer. Meditating throughout the day and night allows us to elevate and focus.

Do we feel as if we’re growing or reversing? Depending on your answer, you know what’s needed to bring the necessary change.

  • A person who is growing needs ongoing development
  • A person who is reversing needs a reawakening

Doesn’t this tell us that we must continue to feed on The Word to ensure that His thoughts become our thoughts, regardless if we’re growing or reversing? We must remain students of life.

Isaiah 55:8-9 

For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord.

For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.

In order for us to have Allah’s (God’s) thoughts and ways, we must feed on His Words. When we not only study, but apply His Words as lessons than we put ourselves in Heaven and are able experience life beyond Earth? Aren’t you ready to explore more than this realm?

Reference: Bible Gateway


Are you grounded? 

What is your truth? Based on your truth, how does it correlate to your development?

If life consists of water, then we need water in everything we do. Brothers, if you’re married, you shall have 100% of truth. The Sister consists of 75%, while you bring 25% to the table. Did you know 1/2 of your faith is marriage? However, this post is not about marriage.

If we are following Allah, we are bearing fruit in the correct season. With you as his plant, you won’t deteriate if you follow His instructions. If not, we wither from the lack of water (truth) that we choose to deprive ourselves from.

The Moon is a reflection of The Black man and woman in the Hells of North America. Aren’t you tired of being deprived of water (life and truth)?

“Right conduct produces good character is the the same as a tree that has a water source, it will never thirst because it has been planted in the perfect condition and has a direct line to its nourishment. Seek he first the kingdom of God and all his righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you. Direct line to God is the tree planted by the rivers.”

Sister Sharanda Hakim-Haqq

When we are grounded, we prosper. Are you ready to ground self? I am; it’s actually the title I gave for 2018. Let’s ground ourselves and feed on pure water from our God to ensure our leaves bloom.


Chaff: 1) the husks of grains and grasses that are separated during threshing. 2) straw cut up for fodder. 3) worthless matter; refuse.

Husks: 1) the dry external covering of certain fruits or seeds, especially of an ear of corn. 2) the enveloping or outer part of anything, especially when dry or worthless.

Threshing: 1) to separate the grain or seeds from (a cereal plant or the like) by some mechanical means, as by beating with a flail or by the action of a threshing machine. 2) to beat as if with a flail.

Flail: 1) an instrument for threshing grain, consisting of a staff or handle to one end of which is attached a freely swinging stick or bar. 2) a similar instrument used as a weapon of war.

Fodder: 2) people considered as readily available and of little value

When I read this verse, it makes me think about Sza’s “Dove In The Wind” song. The title of the song sends a message that will go over most heads, meaning most will never understand what she’s referring to and what she wants men to takeaway from the song. But this isn’t about Sza. Do we want to be a dove in the wind who never receives what Allah (God) has for us? I’m sure that’s not the case. The righteous want to be like the eagle, who sees more than a dove. Also, in the case of the verse, we don’t want to be swallowed. If the wind would drive us away, that’s essentially saying that we would be taken away. That sounds worse than the dragon that drags us.


I used to have a problem with restrictive law number twelve (Do not associate with those in bad standings or out of the mosque). However, I’ve had to learn in ways I could’ve avoided had I just listen and respect The Law.

I thought if a Believer made a mistake, it was best for them to be surrounded by those (the righteous, who) they want to live like. However, if they truly wanted to live like the righteous, they would’ve abided by the law.

When one part of an apple molds, the entire apple rots. Although the mold may only appear on one side of the apple, it does not mean that the rest of the apple is edible. There are some who would cut the mold off, toss it, and eat the remains of the apple. I particularly know people who will do this with bread. If a slice of bread is molded, they will throw that slice away and eat the rest of the loaf. However, if they understood, the mold spreads, even if it’s not visible to the eye. This is the same with us as people. It’s best for those who are living other than themselves to be amongst themselves, until they are no longer toxic for the ones working towards purity.

It may sound harsh, but I’ve had to learn from personal experiences and I will no longer keep the company of those who are a virus to the mosque.

The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan gave us The Restrictive Laws of Islam is Our Success. Do we believe that following and living in accordance with The Law is our success?


Which leads us into the last verse, Allah (God) knows best. He gave us a teacher, The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad, and then left one amongst us in our midst, The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan. Do we trust Allah (God) to know the way of the righteous?

I’m sure we don’t want to perish, so let’s be the blessed man who is ready to transform and who walketh in Allah’s (God’s) way.

Perish: 1) to die or be destroyed through violence, privation 2) to pass away or disappear 3) to suffer destruction or ruin

I read where the Master was teaching by the side of the road, because the church is not a building. The church is you. Building the church is building the character of God formed in you, then Allah (God) walks when you walk; Allah (God) talks when you talk; Allah (God) acts as you act. You become the Church of God in Christ.

…What is a Muslim? A Muslim is one who submits his will entirely to do the Will of Allah (God). Never let names divide the House of God anymore. If one says, I’m a Christian, if one says, I’m a Jew, if one says I’m a Muslim, stop and watch how they live. That will tell you who they really are.

If Allah (God) is not king in your dome (head), then you don’t know the awesome power of The Ruler, because when Allah (God) rules in your house, you don’t fear men, you don’t look at the power of the great military strength of America and bow down. If The King is on the throne in your dome, you know that He’s omnipotent and gives you power through your faith to change the realities of your life.

– The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan, The Duty of the Righteous in The Time of War


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In 2018, take care of you!

Peaceful New Year!

How many years have you spent writing new year resolutions, but not actually making new year resolutions? This year, I encourage us to have a made up mind. As The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan teaches, “Beloved, there is nothing more powerful than a made-up mind. Don’t say, “I’ll do it tomorrow.” Don’t tell me about “tomorrow.” Don’t tell me about tomorrow, because you know nothing about tomorrow. All that you have is this moment in time. Make up your mind, now!”

Read “Ditch the usual New Years resolution: Do these 5 things instead” by Ebboni X Savory to help you implement achievable practices.

How full is your cup?

In 2017, I spent a lot of time pouring into others. You’re probably thinking what’s wrong with that? Nothing, unless you’re doing that more than you’re filling your cup. In 2017, I poured into everyone’s cup before mine was filled. This year, I’m only pouring if my cup is overflowing. I’m not saying it’ll be easy, but it’s important for me to master the need to do for self first.

The goal is to have an overflowing cup before you give.

Clean and detox

  1. Clean your environment: Once you make your mind up, it’s important to thoroughly clean your space (your home, your car, etc.) before clearing your mind. Your mind feeds off what it sees. When you’re living in a cluttered space, it’s hard for your mind to focus, especially when there are so many visuals in sight.
  2. Fast/detox: Controlling your stomach will help release chemicals that are in your body and it will help prepare your mind for focus and quiet time. What you eat also has a huge affect on what you think. Eat to think. Eat to live. Last, watch what you intake once you decide to break the fast. Don’t allow your time of fasting to go to waste.
  3. Reflect on your strengths and growth areas. Affirm self <click to read me). As you accept the process of growing, those who no longer serve you, will automatically be removed from your life.
  4. Live for you. Put yourself in a confined space <click to read me).

 

It’s easier to say what we can do, but it’s harder to put everything in practice. I simply advise that you (that we) just get started doing whatever we want. “[The Honorable Elijah Muhammad] said when people wrote him about their bad habits, “How can I stop?” he said, “Just stop.” Why would he say something like that? There’s no big, long drawn-out thing, to break a habit. You have to develop the Will to stop, and then stop… You can stop any bad habit once you make up your mind!” -The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan, The Restrictive Law of Islam Is Our Success, page 61

Therefore, if all that’s required of us is to stop when we want to break a bad habit, then if we want to acquire a habit, it would be that we just start.

Starting is the hard part. The reason why you started is what helps with consistency.

What do you envision and who will hold you responsible?

In order for me to ensure I’m ready to accept the challenge, I’ve worked on vision boards that will keep me focused throughout each day. We as a people have zero limits. However, it’s important for us to set boundaries. Boundaries do not mean you’re limited, just as loving someone with conditions does not mean you don’t truly love them. We even have to love ourselves with conditions. When I’m living other than self in a way that is not pleasing to Allah (God), I can’t say that I love the person I am portraying. I do love myself enough to accept my own and be myself and you can’t do that without conditions. Loving with conditions shows your love for others; it’s called accepting responsibility in the form of being accountable. Do you have an accountability partner? <click to read me)

The best accountability partner is Allah (God). He will stop you in your tracks when you steer off on the wrong path. It’s just that we have to be clear to receive His Guidance and instructions. The second best accountability partner is yourself. We have to learn to hold ourselves accountable. Oftentimes, we want to hold everyone around us to a standard, but do we hold ourselves up to the same or even better because after all we are the ones living our own lives.

So this year hold yourself accountable, if you choose to work on your vision board, remember:

If it’s not in your vision, don’t allow yes to be a part of your decision.

Don’t make impromptu decisions. Learn how to say no. More importantly, learn how to say no without an explanation.

So in 2018, instead of making a list of what I plan to do, I’m focused on ensuring that the priority is taking care of me. When you take care of self, your health and wellness will increase and you’ll be ready to give to others.

Title 2018

Every year deserves a title. I title my year based on the previous year and what I know is coming. Last year was the year of fruition. I planted a lot of seeds for self and gave birth to some, but mostly for others. This year the seeds that I planted for myself will be manifested, but in order to make that happen, I have to be firmly rooted. Can you guess what the title of this year is?

When thinking about your title, reflect on what 2018 equals.

2+1=3

3+8=11

1+1= 2

2 = you define what “2” means for you

Who has approval over your life?

This year don’t wait for the approval of others. Don’t ask for the thoughts of others, unless it’s sincerely someone you trust. However, I encourage that you don’t allow the total of number you trust while you’re in the womb to exceed more than three people. You already have 1) Allah, (God), 2) you, 3) husband/wife, so why would you want the thought of more than this group of people who are in your corner to affect your actions?

Stop asking the blind to proofread your vision.

For me, 2018 is the year of Grounding. I will be firmly grounded in Allah (God), The Teachings of The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad under The Guidance of The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan. I will be firmly grounded in self, so that I can receive and fulfill all of what Allah (God) has for me. This will allow me to give to others, as I desire in a controlled way. What will you be grounded in and what is the title that you have for 2018?

Self-care may sound simple, but sometimes we make more time for others more than ourselves. Remember to take care of you first. It’s not a simple task. In fact, it’s one of the most important duties.


I began with “peaceful new year” because you don’t know how a person left 2017. I know I’m not the only one who experienced trial and error, but I know there are folks who haven’t properly healed yet. Therefore, the word “peaceful” may uplift someone, while the word “happy” may remind someone of their condition that they’re not necessarily “happy” with. May we reflect on previous years for great success and receive all of the blessings Allah (God) has for us.

It is not just a new year. We must acknowledge one of our brothers on this day. Click here to remember Oscar Grant.

Your strengths

Defining STRENGTH!

1. The quality or state of being strong, in particular a) physical power and energy

The emotional or mental qualities necessary in dealing with situations or events that are distressing or difficult.

synonyms: fortitude, resilience, spirit, backbone, strength of character, courage, bravery, pluck, pluckiness, courageousness, grit, mettle, informal guts, spunk.

The influence or power possessed by a person, organization, or country.

2. A good or beneficial quality or attribute of a person or thing.

A person or thing perceived as a source of mental or emotional support.

3. The number of people comprising a group, typically a team or army.

Clarity in more than one way! The Will of God

Pondering on this word (strength) brings so much to mind. I could start to ramble, but that is not my intention today. My intention is to ask have you ever really considered your strengths? Have you looked at self and said what am I good at, whether physically, mentally or in a spiritual way? Have you?

Well today is a good day to start, write it down and go over it. Then ask self is this true?

I am consciously staying out of grouping.

Grouping is putting everyone or everything under the same umbrella. Just because you haven’t done or seen someone else do [what you have in mind] doesn’t mean it’s not possible or it was never done. Or saying everyone is the same when we all have different gifts and talents, but it manifest on different levels, and strengthen us in different ways because of circumstance.

I have come to realize that (I) at one time or another group things and people and places, it is not good or bad or indifferent in any way but just a new perspective on my part.

I have the power and energy to be myself, myself is loving…

…that’s when I laugh more and play more and feel so at peace with the ones that surround me. This I call my Blessings, my Beloveds. Periodically, I go into other states such as solitude, this also brings me joy because I learn more about me and the many things that I never really took the time to understand and why I do certain things. When you become conscious of the “I” you become aware of the states you go into, you can see them and you can redirect them depending on the outcome you are looking to acquire. The many states that we traverse on a daily requires fortitude, because we also interact with other states of consciousness and unconsciousness (other people) and you are always the main character in your dealings no matter how it plays out you (your spirit) is a contributing factor.

I am dealing with the “I” right now. In finding your strength how do you go about doing it? Who’s methodology will you implement? I ask this because no one knows you better than you, and the more you come to the surface, the better you are able to communicate, express and be the beautiful person that you have always been. I will call this shedding the many layers that is not self, the dross. In becoming you, your quirks, your everything inside yourself frees you. Do you show this to the world? And if not why not? It takes grit to go against the grain to speak your truth no matter what the outcome. The Authentic (I) is a power house, that uplifts and inspire. So on our sojourn, I invite The I Am in you to come out. And be Authentically You!

Know ThySelf!

Why I want to be a doula (in short)

After being born a premature, weighing four pounds and four ounces at six months from my beautiful teenage mother (at the time), I find it extremely important for all women to understand the significance of giving birth to children. I’ve had multiple conversations with my parents (both biological and grandparents) to learn more about what was happening while I was in the womb of my mother. I encourage each person, both man and woman to inquire about what was happening during each trimester. This type of knowledge can bring insight into who we are and bring understanding regarding the decisions we make.

As I watch women surrounding me, I realize many don’t have an understanding of who they are, which explains why they’re experiencing complicated births and why women whether they’re pregnant or not are spiritually dead. I want to provide emotional, informational, spiritual, and physical support to the family who are preparing to bring a child into their lives. I understand that it may seem weird for me to mention the family and not just the mom. However, I realize that the people who are around the mother the most have a huge affect on the mother and child that is forming. Therefore, I want to help the mother become more acquainted with who she is, while simultaneously educating the family. We can not depend on what doctors and society tells us is best for our bodies. I refuse to compromise truth and I won’t put my life in the hands of anyone else. Last, since I care about myself, then I must care about those who are a true reflection of me, which are women around the world.

One precious aspect of life that I pray all women grow to appreciate the most is the womb. Not just the physical womb, but all aspects (physical – birthing center, mental – your thoughts, and spiritual  – the heart) of the womb that makes her who she is. The future of each woman and of the world lives within the womb. “There is a direct correlation between the condition of your womb and your overall wellness”, says Queen Afua.

The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad teaches, “A Nation Can Rise No Higher Than Its Woman.” That is not light weight and that’s the last, but most important reason why I’m passionate about dedicating my time to uplift my Sisters for the betterment of our community. G. F. Scott, Midnight Literary Midwife says, “Womb wellness must become a global concern. Overcoming an angry vagina is a global urgency.” If we as women are suffering, what does that say about the condition of the rest of the world? If I can help one woman, it means that I have helped a family, which then results in positive change for a generation. I believe in making an impact, not just in doing good deeds, but in transforming lives. Therefore,  I’m passionate about my Sisters, our children, and the womb that bores our future.

I understand that this is a part of my assignment from God and that it’s my duty to be educated for my own personal knowledge and to aid as many as I can because the womb is a global matter that feeds my heart every time I’m learning and implementing in this manner.

I Live – Poem

What I’m going to share is not my story alone. Your story is mine, my story is yours. So I ask: as I share my experience, will you reflect on self?


*****

I am beginning to appreciate the Cycles of Life.

Allah wrote on my heart last night, I felt His presence so clearly.

He imprinted His mind on mine and I received it all in a dream.

I woke up and realized what Allah was showing me. He gifted me with The Bee to say the least. He reminded me of all of the reasons to live.

He gives me purpose when I feel as if there’s none left for me. He told me to stop asking “how” but to remember the mission and get right to work because it’s a remedy for healing illnesses. Diving into the work provides direction. I bear witness. It recharges you and gives life when it feels as if there’s nothing left. The work fuels you. Being in your presence fuels me and if I come in with my Higher Power, then I too, can fuel you.

And I desire that reciprocity, for us to be a reflection of one another. We are His children, so let’s mirror what that means.

••••

Selfless when it comes to serving God. Because although this is my life to live, my life is not mine. I am all for God. And God is love, so I’m living because interchangeable to love is to live. So I had to (re)learn how to love me again. This new found love enabled me to live again. But do you understand that I partially had to die for this rebirth to love and live again? Understand, that I say again because killing doubt, ego, fear, insecurities, and vain is an everyday process.

••••

I’ve come to realize that we are always in the womb, a stage in our development that brings forth our reality, a new chapter on our journey of life. This journey is an awakening path. And on this path I had to learn from The Minister that, “pain is the mother of creativity”, so I had to reflect on the illnesses that Allah permitted, but I caused.

••••

It was like starting over from the womb. I had to go back to a dark place, I had to put myself in a confined space. All I could hear and feel was Allah. All third parties had to be removed. It was just me and Allah. And honestly, I did not like this place or the pace in which God and I were co-existing. Everything seemed to be too slow. I was becoming impatient. My impatience led to me becoming a sick patient.

Due to my ignorance of not wanting to endure the pregnancy phase, I began to lose the critical aspects of my development because I aborted the process. The 9 stages. I need all 9 to aim towards completeness to become one with Allah, to be whole again. But my pain brought me back to life.

••••

I made a commitment to take care of self first. And stop doing the most for others. I had to arrange the line of duty in the right order.

I turned the TV off to see my reality clear. My life became crystallized and my need for crystals vanished because I was able to activate my crystals within.

But in order for me to keep them charged, I had to remember that I’m dependent, so I submitted to God. And my love for Him prepared me for the battlefield. His armor helped me confront my trials. And when I got through them, this time I wasn’t broken. Instead, I was renewed. Transformed for His cause.

••••

I have another problem. When I learn, I like to give. You see? I give as I receive. But I’m learning as I receive, I shall pause for I, for me. Just as I need to parse words, I need to parse the moment. When I’m done sharing a piece that God gave to me, I’m going to take part in a moment of solitude, which has “I” before “U” in the word solitude with lit before the u.

See I need to spark a fire in myself first, in order to be So LIT. So-lit-tude. That probably went over your heard. But basically, if I don’t see myself as light then no one else will.

So my selah moments lift me. Selah just means praise and meditation. So my Selah moments lift me. So when people say “there is no cure for that”, I tell them, don’t use that dead language around me. You + Allah is your own cure, but you gotta spark that mustard seed by putting your faith to work.

Blessed doesn’t mean that I won’t be a mess… In fact it’s because of my mess, that I am blessed. Misfortunes are my fortunes. The way you challenge me shows me my challenged self. So please encourage me when you see I’m off. And I’ll do the same for you. Cause when together, we reflect our Higher Self… Flying like the bee…

••••

Can I talk about my totem with you? The bee. The bee is my spiritual totem. A totem, is similar to a spirit animal, but on a higher plane.

According to science, bees are not supposed to be able to fly, like the Black man and woman are not supposed to rise. The wings of a bee are not supposed to be able to lift the weight of their body. Our knowledge is not supposed to be able to lift the masses of the people. But, like the bee who has its wings, we have our wings. Protect your temple. Use your crown as the wings to free yourself as the bee does.

••••

BUT in order to reach this freedom:

You gotta start over from the womb. Go back to a dark place, put yourself in a confined space. Hear and feel Allah. Remove all third parties. Just you and Allah. And honestly, you may not always like this place or the pace in which God and you coexist. Everything may seem too slow. You may become impatient, but don’t become a sick patient.

Endure the pregnancy phase. Enjoy your development. It’s a process of 9 stages. You need all 9 to aim towards completeness to become one with Allah, to be whole again.

If you nurture the trimesters, you will give birth to a god. That’s you a new god. Your pain will bring you back to life. And instead of coexisting with God, you will live with Him. Don’t just exist. Live. Understand your purpose, take care of you, so that you may heal the community.

••••

Allah wrote on my heart last night, I felt His presence so clearly.

He imprinted His mind on mine and I received it all in a dream.

I woke up and realized what Allah was showing me. I parsed my learnings in moments of solitude. And then I gave (right now) what I received to you.

I am beginning to appreciate the Cycles of Life.


Family

Family: 1) A basic social unit consisting of parents and their children, considered as a group, whether dwelling together or not 2) a traditional family 3) All those persons considered as descendants of a common progenitor 4) A group of people who are generally not blood relations but who share common attitudes, interests, or goals and, frequently, live together    

Now that there’s a basic understanding of family, let us see how are you, how are we with our families.

Do we truly understand the dynamic of what family implies or truly means?
I would like to say all human being are my family because we choose to get along, we choose to work and find things that are desirable  together. But that’s not the only thing, we actually create a beautiful world together, our interaction with each other is what propels this world and we build it each moment of our knowing existence. Our visions never cease, and we can find all kinds of goodies when we take the time to look, really look at the person that we are communicating with. We can be in all kinds of emotions and thoughts from just one, but we never stop at one because that would be boring, so we expand and this gives us variety and it spices up our lives in ways we sometimes find pleasing and sometimes not, but it is all beautiful. Our collaboration willingly or unwillingly, knowingly and unconsciously is apart of our dynamic in this life.

I have come to the understanding that in our interaction with complete strangers it can instantly feel like home, it is a welcoming feeling to not have a filter and to be at peace, that offense will be by the wayside because we are in alignment with each other. This is something that I have and continue to experience with my family, the human family, and this comes with growth and acceptance of each person, just as they are. Freedom is acceptance, of all that is.

Families come in all shapes and sizes these days because of interracial coupling and marriages. The barriers that once was is no more. But is that just a perception on my part? If we live in a world but don’t interact with the world can we judge it? And if we interact with this world but carry our preconceived notions into it, are we seeing it clearly? At what point are we going to say that I will be open to new experiences and be my best self?

I have asked these questions because when we judge beforehand we miss out on so much because we went in with barriers, and barriers create barriers. That’s how energy works. We block and clog up our systems because we put it out there that, this/that or the other will take place instead of allowing the Divine to flow and work through us, to open doors for us and show us the way forward. This is something that has been programmed into the collective subconsciousness of the human family. But when do we say enough is enough and I will be that change in my family and I will be responsible for what I put out? When? I say now!

Now is a good time to evaluate your immediate family, how do you communicate with your mother, your father and the variety of relations you have been gifted with. How? Is it with suspicion and envy and all other traits that is not right acting? Or is it with love and peace and understanding? Whatever you put into your family, that is what you will receive. So it comes back to us, and again the preconceived notions and thoughts we perpetuate.

Family is home and home should always feel welcoming and safe. So be the change and be that safe place and watch the human family transcend.

Infinite Peace Family,

Sharanda!

Know ThySelf!

Follow your dreams by the season, not by your passion.

On Wednesday, November 22, I reflected on when I joined The Nation of Islam. The Genesis of our journey, is a constant reflection that we should take the time to understand. As Sister Saron X from the UK shared, “We must always remember our Genesis as individuals, it holds so many keys to where Allah is taking us and our purpose!”

Before coming into the knowledge of self, I was heavily involved in acting. It was my life. I was on my way towards becoming a full-time actress. It’s what I wanted and what I seen for myself in my youth, on stage sharing a message.

Now that I’ve learned more about my purpose, my journey, and what Allah (God) is preparing me for, I want to share a piece of it with you. My hope is that you reflect and see what parts of this puzzle resonate.

The CharmerDuring my first Saviours’ Day of 2014 with the theme, “How Strong Is The Foundation; Can We Survive?”, there was a Special Documentary Presentation of The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan titled “Let’s Change the World: My Life Journey Through Music” that forever changed my life. During the documentary, he shared his love for music and how he gave up his passion to accept his assignment (those are not his words, but my way of describing some of what I took from it). I had a constant flow of tears that would not stop. I knew I was at the right place at the right time, but I did not understand The Time that we were and currently in. I was digesting what was being given to me. I couldn’t really gather my thoughts, but I was so thankful. I felt something in my being come alive and in that moment, all I wanted to do was help that man. Not necessarily the man on the screen, The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan. I wanted to help his teacher, The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad, but the reality is that I wanted to grow close to the man who helped them become who they are and are continuing to grow into, which is Allah (God), Who appeared to us in The Person of Master Fard Muhammad. In that moment though, all I could think was, “what a beautiful introduction, what a beautiful gift it is to learn about a man who has made many of sacrifices to (do more than) serve a Nation”. I silently asked, “Where have I been? Why am I just learning about The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan and The Nation of Islam”?

The documentary is not available for you to watch. However, in The Time And What Must Be Done, Part 7, The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan shares his experience of the sacrifice he made.

I know that’s a lot, but it’s important for me to share those thoughts (that experience) because it leads to dreams, seasons, and passions. If you’re interested, I ask you to take your time reading this and, as always, I ask you to reflect on your own journey.

After the Wednesday youth lecture at The Final Call, I started thinking about my love for acting and why Allah showed me the documentary upon my introduction. In that moment, I learned that it was time to put my acting on hold, in order to soak up this new beginning. Not because I am The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan. I understand that’s clearly not the case. One thing that’s for sure, I’ve always been the type of person to find connections between what’s happening now and what occurred in the past.

 

So, I started thinking about how Allah (God) has always put me in situations that caused me to be aberrant in search for what could be my type. I was looking for my type because amongst all of the family and people surrounding me in school, I always felt apart from them and my love for acting made me feel as if I was cultivating something in me. When I was on stage, I was able to connect with people (the cast, crew, and the audience) and those who I was portraying caused me to learn more about self. There was so much going on in my life that I didn’t understand. The scripts allowed me to wear the shoes of others and I decided to take time to understand their circumstances. It was like putting my problems on pause to dive into the dilemmas of humanity that no one wanted to speak of, but that folks wanted to be entertained with. Acting was a commitment I made. I had to give up a part of me in order to bring out what the playwright and directors wanted. The duty that I gave to be in plays affected the time that I had with family and friends. This was the first time I realized that I had to choose what was important to me, even if it meant that it would cause disappointment because I couldn’t always be in the presence of those I love.

Read the full article from this video here.

I hope you’re following. When I joined The Nation of Islam, I had plenty of people questioning my character and choices for what was about to change everything. The more I attended meetings, I started infusing what I learned into my life and realized this was all I ever had time for. I was supposed to be signing up for my next acting class, so I could start auditioning for plays and to finally be behind the camera for film productions. However, I’d began studying Student Enrollment, so that I could recite and devote my life for a cause that would require me to look at all of the (split) characters inside of self. Allah (God) was telling me that I could no longer focus on the lives of others. In fact, he said that you cannot help anyone, until you start looking at and dealing with yourself as priority. Just as I would shut everything out to learn my lines, I started learning about history and unpacking who I am.

When I gave up acting, I told Allah (God) that I’d put my dream on hold to receive what He has for me and that if He gave me the opportunity to act again, I would do so with intentional purpose. Well, I recently realized that Allah has been telling me, it’s time to utilize my gift of acting to touch the masses.

I had a dream on Wednesday. I seen this group of singers on stage and there was one who didn’t feel comfortable with the people that she was working with because it was causing her to deviate from the assignment that was set for her. Once she started singing for the right purposes, she felt alive again. So she had to carefully choose the people who were going to be in her corner, on her team, and be very selective in the projects that she would use her gift for and give her time to. When she followed instructions, her assignment became clear, but she had to go through multiple seasons (trials) to understand. However, in the end her gift impacted many and most of all she was genuinely happy and sane.

This dream does not appear to be deep. No, I did not travel or go to some high place. However, if we can begin to take lessons from “regular” dreams, then the mind can go anywhere. Start simple and stay simple as you’re revealed more.

Upon waking up, I smiled because I knew Allah (God) was using the dream to give me another sign of what time it is for my life. He gave His approval and another sign confirming what I can do for His Mission.

If I wasn’t willing to give up acting in the past, I wouldn’t have become so in love with me and continuing at the time would have only caused my acting to fall flat. I didn’t give up something that I wasn’t good at. My very first play and my last, I won an award for. Acting wasn’t just some hobby. I know I could’ve made a lot of money in the industry. However, I probably would have become a product of society, instead of a civilized person who God is shaping to be His co-creator.

Now, I have a message to share that I couldn’t have done without Supreme Wisdom. I had to realize that I must be a full-time servant of God and always put myself second to Him. In The Nation of Islam, I found “my type”. Yes, at times I have to remove myself from others, but solitude is how we were created in the womb, so oneness (time with God and self) is what we need to workout our salvation.

What dreams do you have? What season are you in? Are there some people that you need to allow to FALL back, so you can SPRING ahead? Because of the season you’re in, what do you have to sacrifice? Are you able to focus on the mission and be passionate about what assignment you have in this season? As the seasons change, no matter if you’re able to activate the gift you have in mind, will you be able to find the passion that you have, so that you’re working for the greater good? And when the weather (condition) of the season starts showing you that it’s time to pursue your dream, will you be ready to actively put your gifts to use, as the calamities come?

What’s the benefit of good deeds when done out of season? You may be passionate about something or have a gift to give, but if it’s shared at the wrong time, then it won’t serve anyone well. Therefore, we have to ground ourselves, get a Red Jasper crystal, gain control over what we’re passionate about and learn how to activate the passion at the right time because if we don’t we will harm ourselves and maybe others. We all have a role to fulfill and when we’re not being dutiful, we delay the process of a collective development.

Everyone may not understand your choices, but it’s not for them to understand. This is your journey. People may think you’re changing and they may take that in a negative way, but something that I keep in mind is: What everyone can’t see is that I am a new being, but I am the person who is blossoming into everything that I need to become.

Acting was the seed I needed to cultivate strength. The Teachings nourished me and prepared me for the garden Allah is producing. 

There was a time when I devoted my life to acting, now I devote my life to live for a divine purpose.

What are you living for and doing in this season?