My Journey in Islam is Transforming

Prior to joining The Nation of Islam, I voiced what I wanted for my life and I had an exhausting list of questions that were hard to find answers for. So when I attended my first lecture on Sunday, January 12, 2014, it was shocking to see and hear some of what I wanted for my life and to receive answers to questions I had for years. It only took one meeting to plant seeds in the womb of my mind and heart. No, I wasn’t sure about joining just yet, but I knew I wanted more. It was a lot to process. Could this all be too good to be true?

Following a couple of weeks, I decided to take a trip to the mosque. This time I attended my first processing M.G.T. & G.C.C., Muslim Girls in Training & General Civilization Class on Saturday, January 25, 2014 and returned to the Sunday meeting on January 26 to hear Sister Ava Muhammad. It was nice to see and hear a Black woman speak so freely on what she believed in, in such a civilized and confident way. The spirit and the manner in which she delivered the message resulted in me joining The Nation of Islam and I have not looked back since. From there, I worked hard to understand the prerequisites of The Teachings of The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad. Later that year, I became a registered member of The Nation of Islam on September 20, 2014.

After eighth grade, I was moving to a mindset that no longer wanted to be in the close company of women. There were girls who backstabbed me and I felt as if I could no longer trust women, but I knew it wasn’t best to take men as “close” friends either. I knew that there was power in women coming together, but I wasn’t sure if that was possible for my life. Being in the processing class opened my eyes to a powerful sisterhood. The way I observed the processing instructors, it made me see the beauty in women collaborating and being one united front. My work as an empowerment coach now meant so much more then just some thing I was doing. Listen to the full interview here.

So when I walked into the registered M.G.T. Class, I was very grateful for being chosen by Allah to be considered as His girl who is being refined. Not only am I becoming a better individual, I am collectively aiding in the betterment of the condition of this world. The world will not improve, until the woman is uplifted. A nation can rise no higher than its woman, so if I’m not being elevated, I understand that it’s best to remove myself from potentially detrimental situations. I am the standard. We the M.G.T. are the standard and Insha’Allah (God Willing), we will be pleasing to The Most High.

StudentBeing the standard is easy to say, but it’s not easy to grasp what this means in totality. If we are truly the standard, which we are, then this implies that there’s a lot of work that must be done. 75% of work is with the woman. As much as I can recall, the woman has always been on the frontline working, alongside the man and without the man. Being the Second Self of Allah (God), we make no excuses. We work even when we’re tired and through the pain. This work requires an ongoing study. Can a woman who does not study say that she is fulfilling God’s Will? I know an M.G.T. cannot. In the very title is a reminder that we must train and be in class. So to be an M.G.T., we must humble ourselves to always be a student. I am always thankful to say and show that I am a student of The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad under the divine guidance of The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan.

I am thankful to The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan for standing firm in his Islam and in The Mission to resurrect the dead. Had it not been for The Minister, I would not know about The Nation of Islam or our true history that is not shared in this world’s educational system. Most of all, The Minister has helped me embrace who I am, all of me, the duality of me that most could not stand to receive a glimpse of. One of the many of gifts that he’s given is Self-Improvement: The Basis for Community Development study guides, which has been a tremendous aid. Throughout his stand as the representative of his teacher, The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad, he has reminded us of the importance of resurrection (killing the devil and raising the god within). No matter how much I tried to improve myself elsewhere, I was also searching for more because I was never feeding from The Source. It is The Teachings that have allowed me to continue becoming who I am supposed to be. I can never thank this beautiful man, who has sacrificed himself for humanity. Referring to him as a humble man is the least.

As my personal testimony, I must share that The Minister’s profound statement, “Pain is the mother of creativity” is one that has helped me most. Accepting Allah (God) and declaring to Him that I want to serve in The Mission of raising the dead is not easy, especially when the first dead that has to rise is you. And then after you’ve been raised, while you’re bringing more home, there is always more work to be done with the person in the mirror. Raising the dead in us is an ongoing task. It’s one that I don’t want to stop and wouldn’t have the option to opt-out of, if I wanted. As I’m continuing to learn that self-improvement is painful, I’m also learning that it’s purifying. Trials are purifying and just as painful as it is to become one with Allah, it’s just as ugly to look at others in their pain sometimes. I’m not sorry for saying that. I’m keeping it real. We can all be some ugly people. I’m learning that just as ugly as I can be in my healing process, others around me are just as ugly. This understanding is helping me be more forgiving to myself and anyone that has possibly caused me an ounce of pain. The reality is that we cause pain on ourselves more than we like to point the finger. People are not perfect and this includes the people who follow Allah (God). Islam is perfect though. Islam is the be all. Look at the word, “ISlam”. It’s like BElam. Okay, I’m corny, but I hope you see the point I’m making.

Overall in life, which Islam is a way of life, we are constantly being tried because everyday there is a test to pass/past (excel in and move forward). I used to hate test, especially pop quizzes. Now, my goal is to take the test and take my time through it. I’m in no rush. I am in the class of God and I have a lot to learn about Him and myself. Instead of asking “why me” or “why this test required”, I am thanking Allah that He still sees me as worthy and I am continuing to purify my heart, so that my mind can be prepared and so that my actions align with my mental and spiritual being. My Islam is transforming and I understand that this is an ongoing process for me and those surrounding me, so I’m covered with Allah’s armor, so that I can put forth my all.

I Am Covered Through Trials

I was blessed to be born and raised in The Nation of Islam with a personal decision to officially register in 2014. I joined because I saw no other way of life worthy to accept. None proved to be a path I belonged to.

The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan is the literal reason I was born, for if he had not penetrated the minds of my parents with the truth of Allah (God), then they would not have married and conceived me. He is the ultimate example of a human becoming a god, just as Jesus 2,000 years ago said we were! What hasn’t he done for me?

John 10:34 Jesus answered them, is it not written in your law, I said, ye are gods?

As a registered member of The Nation of Islam, I have the opportunity to strive towards perfection and ultimate godhood in the M.G.T. & G.C.C., Muslim Girls in Training & General Civilization Class. However, it is a challenge to be in this world and not succumb to being of this world. I have stumbled plenty of times, but what helps me be steadfast is the protection of the sisterhood. The sisterhood is the equivalent of God’s covering (the “hood”).

Through everything, I know I have Allah and my sisters to make it through. Islam is trying in a world that does not approve, but I’m not done giving my all for freedom.

Allah’s love for His girl, Sister Terrika Muhammad

I am a “Nation Baby” so I was raised in the Nation, but I did still choose Islam for myself. Because we are a curious people with free will, we all have that period of time where we wander from the religious beliefs that we were raised knowing. That lasted approximately six months for me. I realized quickly that I belong in The Nation.

img_0241-2I started hanging with my college friends, you know, living the “college life” and Allah (God) always showed me that I didn’t belong. I had a death experience at least twice. One, an associate was under the influence, and almost drove us off the road. The people around me all thought this situation was funny, but I knew, Allah’s goal was to snatch me back in. I was even put on probation from college being at the wrong place at the wrong time. Thankfully, I completed secondary education with a Bachelors of Science and am currently in the field of technology in accordance with my studies. Then, I was completely oblivious to where I was in that moment. The song that I relate to, that literally had me in tears was Crawl by Chris Brown. I had to crawl my way back to The Nation, to Allah. Quickly!

He gave the human being something that He never gave any of His creatures. He gave us the free will to choose and then He offers us the right way. But He lets us choose if we wish to follow His Way.
– The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan, A Prescription for Humanity (article)

The Nation of Islam set me apart from the people I was around in public. I was taught things that the world could never teach me. I was taught that cleanliness was next to godliness and that I could literally become God! I am the Second Self of God. What an honor that is! If all women knew that, we would carry ourselves better and move like we were on top on the world. Because we literally are. We build nations. I wouldn’t have learned these things had it not been for Master Fard Muhammad, The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad and The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan. I love them for their sacrifice and for saving my life.

The Nation of Islam showed me how special I was from a young age and helped me to see my true value. Being an M.G.T., Muslim Girl in Training gives me that okay to still be a little girl in Allah’s eyes, while still evolving to be the best woman that I can be. One who is always willing to learn more from God and His servants.

Matthew 18:3 “Assuredly, I say to you, unless you are converted and become as little children, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven.

God’s servant in our midst, The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan has given me life! I think life should include fulfillment, purpose, honor, humbleness. Minister Louis Farrakhan has taught me how to achieve all of that, plus more! I have a life with untapped value that I am still learning how to discover from The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan.

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As I’m continuing to discover my value, I see the importance of dressing modest, which brings up a challenge that comes with being a Muslimah: what do I wear?! Especially in the summer. Almost every store wants for you to conform and show some kind of skin! I am overcoming it by getting my own clothes made. Sometimes we have to go the extra mile for things we love. My Islam is love.

Sister Zakiyyah Maryam’s Islam is Resilient

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I am Zakiyyah Maryam and was born and raised in Memphis, Tennessee in the Nation of Islam. My family’s journey to Islam began with my Great-Grandmother, Willie (May Allah Be Pleased with her). She had to pick cotton when she was growing up. She was a sharecropper and that injustice system that kept black people in an economically insufficient condition also kept them away from formal education, which my great-grandmother did not have.When she was allowed to move away from sharecropping, she then began teaching herself how to read and became an avid reader. It was also the truth in the Teachings of the Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad, which is Freedom, Justice, Equality (Islam).

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The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad

The truth that the Black man is The Maker, The Owner, Cream of The Planet Earth, God of The Universe. The truth that the Black woman is the mother of civilization. The truth that Allah (God) came in the Person of Master W.D. Fard Muhammad and that The Messiah or Mahdi has come and would judge this world — in particular America based on her mistreatment of the so-called Negroes of North America and the members of the Original family (Native Americans/so-called Latinos, Asians, and our brothers and sisters in Africa).

This is The Teaching that uplifted my great-grandmother’s spirit and she began introducing her children to The Teachings of Islam through the Honorable Elijah Muhammad. Though my great-grandmother did not register as a Muslim in the NOI (Nation of Islam), my grandmother did and the rest is history. But on my own personal sojourn in Islam, I was soul searching and I was at a point in my life where I needed to find inner strength and inner peace and I discovered that in studying The Holy Qur’an as well as The Teachings. I was about 14 years old when I actually became personally invested in Islam and I decided that I wanted to officially re-register when I was 18-years-old making me officially a part of the M.G.T & G.C.C, Muslim Girl Training & General Civilization Class.

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Personally to be an M.G.T. is to be a sister, a righteous woman. A Muslim Girl in Training is not just a look. An M.G.T. is a righteous woman. Righteousness is the essence of our being. We are taught in the NOI that the woman is the second self of God. She is divine and sacred in her nature. Our seven training units brought to us by Master W.D. Fard were to lay the base of the cultivation of our righteous nature and to one day be the leading example for women all around the world. But I think, we must start by looking at our sisters, whether are Muslims or not, as truly our sisters and see the divineness in each other, just as the head of the class, The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan teaches.

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The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan has influenced me and the world in many ways, with the Help of Allah. One principle that the Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan has taught me is to challenge your fear. He has shown that throughout over his 60 years of service in the Nation of Islam and in rebuilding the Nation of Islam for 40 years absent his teacher, The Honorable Elijah Muhammad. The Minister has travailed through the opposition of the enemy, the powers that be, and other obstacles to complete the promise of Allah (God), which is to break our people free from the shackles of the enemy. The Minister discovered his purpose and I think when you know and understand your purpose in life that you are able to challenge your fear against the greatest of opposition because you have a firm ground of certainty of what it is that you must fulfill. This is not to say that challenging your fears is an easy feat, but it is possible.

According to the dictionary, “fear” is a distressing emotion aroused by impending pain, danger, evil, whether that pain, danger or evil is real, or imagined. If you become afraid even of some imaginary thing that has not yet happened, the distressing emotion will still be present. “Fear” is the feeling, or the condition of being afraid.
Fear restricts: Whatever we are afraid of, that which we fear makes us insecure; and whatever makes us afraid and insecure could cause us to bow. When we are afraid, fear causes us not to think properly. Fear causes us not to act properly. Fear makes you so insecure that you have a tendency to acquiesce, to submit, to surrender to the thing that you’re afraid of. And if you acquiesce, submit and surrender to what you are afraid of, then it becomes a god to you beside God!
– The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan, Fear, Faith, and Truth (article, lecture)

My current challenge as a Muslimah is attending a college campus with a Muslim population that is not only small but disconnected with the Muslim community outside of campus. Part of that challenge is the fact since Muslims have attended my university, there has not been a connection with the Muslim community outside of campus and that also impacts us individually, as well as how we see each other. It’s getting better now and I think the political climate is forcing us to understand that we do have to grow out of our little shells and embrace each other. I think for me it’s just been hard being the only Black muslim female student on campus and feeling in between of standing out but also feeling isolated. It was also hard because I was just beginning to join the NOI when I started college. But I think through prayer, patience and just being honest about my experience helped me overcome and also knowing I only have two months left, until graduation so I won’t feel this burden much longer.

It started with my great-grandmother who was planted with a love for Islam, so much that the love transpired and lives through my family. I am grateful for her being an example of what it means to be a mother of civilization and for her love to transcend and have such an impact generations later. I am thankful for everything she endured. She has taught me that Islam is Resilience. And resilient, I will be.

Sister Sharanda Died Three Times to Live

Prior to joining The Nation of Islam, I’d been having visions into future experiences. I am and always am destined to be spiritually inclined. I believed in a higher being or divinity, however I believe in The All. As a spiritual teacher, Jesus left principles that are worth adhering to. I understand when they ask Jesus how do you pray, he answered you pray unto the father. I pray only to The Creator, my sustenance comes through The All.

You are not taught to pray to be heard by Moses and other prophets, not even Elijah whom they say went to Heaven whole soul and body. If Elijah cannot hear a prayer and he was not killed as Jesus was, then how can Jesus hear a prayer? We must not pray to dead prophets. They can’t hear our prayers.
The Muslim loves all of Allah’s prophets, but we will not pray for life to come to us from a dead prophet; not even to Muhammad who lived nearly 1,400 years ago. We pray in the name of Allah and mention the name of His last prophet in our prayer as an honor and thanks to Allah for His last guide to us.
– The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad, Day of Resurrection of Dead So-Called Negroes Has Arrived (Reprint from Our Saviour Has Arrived)

The vision before I accepted was of my death 3 times. Did I die? In the last one, I cried out to Jesus and in the vision I said no “Allah”. I awoke confused of this vision, but it brought about an intense craving to read and learn. Thus, for months I did nothing but read all of the books I could find. I did not sleep – my family a woke and slept and each time they found me reading.

“When he is [you are] taught the spirit of truth, He will guide you into all truth.”
– The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan, The Crucifixion of Jesus

Next, I went through tremors and shaking when something moved me to my core, as confirmation that I was receiving truth. To say this is Divine intervention is correct. So much synchronicity happened in my life; it initially started when I came to America. I was meant to be here – Destiny would have it no other way.

The power of thought, as manifested through the Law of Synchronicity and The Theology of Time, projects all things coming to pass in the appropriate moment and place.
– Mother Tynetta Muhammad, A Picture is Worth a Thousands Words (article)

An MGT in The Nation of Islam is a woman knowing and accepting that all possibilities are open for me, I can accomplish what I will. That I am my own ruler. I design my fate according to my actions and deeds and first and foremost to do no harm. It means to me that I have accepted peace from within myself, from Allah no force can break. It means to me that the oneness of Allah is all I need.

Allah is sufficient for me—there is no God but He. On Him do I rely, and He is the Lord of the mighty Throne. (Holy Qur’an 9:128-129)

Being in The Nation of Islam, I am blessed to say I have not come across many challenges. My family at first questioned why, but let it go, because of love and tolerance for each other. Friends have not questioned my faith. One went as far as saying, I knew your spiritual path would take you where you wanted to be. She said and I quote:

“You are an all or nothing type of person.”

I may have died three times in a vision, but it saved me. Islam is Life.


Interested in knowing some of the books I read during this time:

  • At the beginning, I was guided to Psalm and completed this Book in The Bible.
  • I read Hermès Trice The Great twice
  • Dare to Believe by Mary Rowland
  • The Secret of Freemasonry by Elijah Muhammad
  • The Secret to Perfect Living by James Mangan
  • The Holy Qur’an
  • Study Guide 19: by The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan
  • The God Tribe of Shabazz
  • The Genesis Years (unpublished and rare writing)
  • The Motherplane by The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad
  • The Book of Enoch
  • Books on Aristotle, Plato, and Osho

Muslim Women’s Day: Sisters in The Nation of Islam

ProfessionallyI’m in marketing and was offended when a story in the pipeline for Muslim Women’s Day got delayed because “it’s not a widely-known holiday”. Because I’m taught to rise above emotions into the thinking of God, I realized that it is my responsibility to spread the Good News and represent as a Muslim woman. I don’t need to wait on anyone or expect anyone else to do the work. I will say, I am happy my job will share a story on a Muslim woman. It’s just that comment was an ouch that I turned into an opportunity.

Documented Journey covered eight stories of eight beautiful sisters who are embracing their Islam. Sit back in your chair and join us on our journeys.

* My Journey in Islam is TransformingSister Zakiyyah Maryam’s Islam is ResilientAllah’s love for His girl, Sister Terrika MuhammadI Am Covered Through TrialsSister Fatimah: The RevolutionaryWearing a garment is naturally beautifulSister Sharanda Died Three Times to LiveWho and what is your reflection?


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