My Journey in Islam is Transforming

Prior to joining The Nation of Islam, I voiced what I wanted for my life and I had an exhausting list of questions that were hard to find answers for. So when I attended my first lecture on Sunday, January 12, 2014, it was shocking to see and hear some of what I wanted for my life and to receive answers to questions I had for years. It only took one meeting to plant seeds in the womb of my mind and heart. No, I wasn’t sure about joining just yet, but I knew I wanted more. It was a lot to process. Could this all be too good to be true?

Following a couple of weeks, I decided to take a trip to the mosque. This time I attended my first processing M.G.T. & G.C.C., Muslim Girls in Training & General Civilization Class on Saturday, January 25, 2014 and returned to the Sunday meeting on January 26 to hear Sister Ava Muhammad. It was nice to see and hear a Black woman speak so freely on what she believed in, in such a civilized and confident way. The spirit and the manner in which she delivered the message resulted in me joining The Nation of Islam and I have not looked back since. From there, I worked hard to understand the prerequisites of The Teachings of The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad. Later that year, I became a registered member of The Nation of Islam on September 20, 2014.

After eighth grade, I was moving to a mindset that no longer wanted to be in the close company of women. There were girls who backstabbed me and I felt as if I could no longer trust women, but I knew it wasn’t best to take men as “close” friends either. I knew that there was power in women coming together, but I wasn’t sure if that was possible for my life. Being in the processing class opened my eyes to a powerful sisterhood. The way I observed the processing instructors, it made me see the beauty in women collaborating and being one united front. My work as an empowerment coach now meant so much more then just some thing I was doing. Listen to the full interview here.

So when I walked into the registered M.G.T. Class, I was very grateful for being chosen by Allah to be considered as His girl who is being refined. Not only am I becoming a better individual, I am collectively aiding in the betterment of the condition of this world. The world will not improve, until the woman is uplifted. A nation can rise no higher than its woman, so if I’m not being elevated, I understand that it’s best to remove myself from potentially detrimental situations. I am the standard. We the M.G.T. are the standard and Insha’Allah (God Willing), we will be pleasing to The Most High.

StudentBeing the standard is easy to say, but it’s not easy to grasp what this means in totality. If we are truly the standard, which we are, then this implies that there’s a lot of work that must be done. 75% of work is with the woman. As much as I can recall, the woman has always been on the frontline working, alongside the man and without the man. Being the Second Self of Allah (God), we make no excuses. We work even when we’re tired and through the pain. This work requires an ongoing study. Can a woman who does not study say that she is fulfilling God’s Will? I know an M.G.T. cannot. In the very title is a reminder that we must train and be in class. So to be an M.G.T., we must humble ourselves to always be a student. I am always thankful to say and show that I am a student of The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad under the divine guidance of The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan.

I am thankful to The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan for standing firm in his Islam and in The Mission to resurrect the dead. Had it not been for The Minister, I would not know about The Nation of Islam or our true history that is not shared in this world’s educational system. Most of all, The Minister has helped me embrace who I am, all of me, the duality of me that most could not stand to receive a glimpse of. One of the many of gifts that he’s given is Self-Improvement: The Basis for Community Development study guides, which has been a tremendous aid. Throughout his stand as the representative of his teacher, The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad, he has reminded us of the importance of resurrection (killing the devil and raising the god within). No matter how much I tried to improve myself elsewhere, I was also searching for more because I was never feeding from The Source. It is The Teachings that have allowed me to continue becoming who I am supposed to be. I can never thank this beautiful man, who has sacrificed himself for humanity. Referring to him as a humble man is the least.

As my personal testimony, I must share that The Minister’s profound statement, “Pain is the mother of creativity” is one that has helped me most. Accepting Allah (God) and declaring to Him that I want to serve in The Mission of raising the dead is not easy, especially when the first dead that has to rise is you. And then after you’ve been raised, while you’re bringing more home, there is always more work to be done with the person in the mirror. Raising the dead in us is an ongoing task. It’s one that I don’t want to stop and wouldn’t have the option to opt-out of, if I wanted. As I’m continuing to learn that self-improvement is painful, I’m also learning that it’s purifying. Trials are purifying and just as painful as it is to become one with Allah, it’s just as ugly to look at others in their pain sometimes. I’m not sorry for saying that. I’m keeping it real. We can all be some ugly people. I’m learning that just as ugly as I can be in my healing process, others around me are just as ugly. This understanding is helping me be more forgiving to myself and anyone that has possibly caused me an ounce of pain. The reality is that we cause pain on ourselves more than we like to point the finger. People are not perfect and this includes the people who follow Allah (God). Islam is perfect though. Islam is the be all. Look at the word, “ISlam”. It’s like BElam. Okay, I’m corny, but I hope you see the point I’m making.

Overall in life, which Islam is a way of life, we are constantly being tried because everyday there is a test to pass/past (excel in and move forward). I used to hate test, especially pop quizzes. Now, my goal is to take the test and take my time through it. I’m in no rush. I am in the class of God and I have a lot to learn about Him and myself. Instead of asking “why me” or “why this test required”, I am thanking Allah that He still sees me as worthy and I am continuing to purify my heart, so that my mind can be prepared and so that my actions align with my mental and spiritual being. My Islam is transforming and I understand that this is an ongoing process for me and those surrounding me, so I’m covered with Allah’s armor, so that I can put forth my all.

I Am Covered Through Trials

I was blessed to be born and raised in The Nation of Islam with a personal decision to officially register in 2014. I joined because I saw no other way of life worthy to accept. None proved to be a path I belonged to.

The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan is the literal reason I was born, for if he had not penetrated the minds of my parents with the truth of Allah (God), then they would not have married and conceived me. He is the ultimate example of a human becoming a god, just as Jesus 2,000 years ago said we were! What hasn’t he done for me?

John 10:34 Jesus answered them, is it not written in your law, I said, ye are gods?

As a registered member of The Nation of Islam, I have the opportunity to strive towards perfection and ultimate godhood in the M.G.T. & G.C.C., Muslim Girls in Training & General Civilization Class. However, it is a challenge to be in this world and not succumb to being of this world. I have stumbled plenty of times, but what helps me be steadfast is the protection of the sisterhood. The sisterhood is the equivalent of God’s covering (the “hood”).

Through everything, I know I have Allah and my sisters to make it through. Islam is trying in a world that does not approve, but I’m not done giving my all for freedom.

Allah’s love for His girl, Sister Terrika Muhammad

I am a “Nation Baby” so I was raised in the Nation, but I did still choose Islam for myself. Because we are a curious people with free will, we all have that period of time where we wander from the religious beliefs that we were raised knowing. That lasted approximately six months for me. I realized quickly that I belong in The Nation.

img_0241-2I started hanging with my college friends, you know, living the “college life” and Allah (God) always showed me that I didn’t belong. I had a death experience at least twice. One, an associate was under the influence, and almost drove us off the road. The people around me all thought this situation was funny, but I knew, Allah’s goal was to snatch me back in. I was even put on probation from college being at the wrong place at the wrong time. Thankfully, I completed secondary education with a Bachelors of Science and am currently in the field of technology in accordance with my studies. Then, I was completely oblivious to where I was in that moment. The song that I relate to, that literally had me in tears was Crawl by Chris Brown. I had to crawl my way back to The Nation, to Allah. Quickly!

He gave the human being something that He never gave any of His creatures. He gave us the free will to choose and then He offers us the right way. But He lets us choose if we wish to follow His Way.
– The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan, A Prescription for Humanity (article)

The Nation of Islam set me apart from the people I was around in public. I was taught things that the world could never teach me. I was taught that cleanliness was next to godliness and that I could literally become God! I am the Second Self of God. What an honor that is! If all women knew that, we would carry ourselves better and move like we were on top on the world. Because we literally are. We build nations. I wouldn’t have learned these things had it not been for Master Fard Muhammad, The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad and The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan. I love them for their sacrifice and for saving my life.

The Nation of Islam showed me how special I was from a young age and helped me to see my true value. Being an M.G.T., Muslim Girl in Training gives me that okay to still be a little girl in Allah’s eyes, while still evolving to be the best woman that I can be. One who is always willing to learn more from God and His servants.

Matthew 18:3 “Assuredly, I say to you, unless you are converted and become as little children, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven.

God’s servant in our midst, The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan has given me life! I think life should include fulfillment, purpose, honor, humbleness. Minister Louis Farrakhan has taught me how to achieve all of that, plus more! I have a life with untapped value that I am still learning how to discover from The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan.

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As I’m continuing to discover my value, I see the importance of dressing modest, which brings up a challenge that comes with being a Muslimah: what do I wear?! Especially in the summer. Almost every store wants for you to conform and show some kind of skin! I am overcoming it by getting my own clothes made. Sometimes we have to go the extra mile for things we love. My Islam is love.

Sister Fatimah: The Revolutionary

I was born in the Nation of Islam, but I accepted for myself and officially registered approximately two and a half years ago. As a registered member, I am a part of the M.G.T. & G.C.C., Muslims Girls in Training & General Civilization Class.

In short, M.G.T. to me means being willing to be shaped into the model of the new woman that comes out of the mind of our Saviour, Master Fard Muhammad.

There are many challenges that I face being a Muslimah, but my number one challenge in this journey is getting other women to understand that we are by no means oppressed. This is a spiritual path that we chose after all else had failed us.

Islam comes after everything else fails.
– The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad, Everything Has Failed (article, republished from Message To The Blackman)

Sometimes I feel ostracized by others (not necessarily in my sister circle) because they see Muslimahs as weak. They don’t understand our expression of womanhood, so they judge us. Fighting hard to be righteous in this world is strength and Islam has allowed me and many others to freely express our femininity at the highest level. I want others to see the freedom in Islam.

The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan has done so much for me that I can’t thank Allah enough. I would say the most paramount thing is helping me to discover and understand my intrinsic nature. His guidance has enabled me to see deeper into self and realize my value as a co-creater with God, not just physically, but spiritually. No other teacher or preacher of religion on this planet is elevating the black woman in America and really all women over the world.

He has encouraged me to remain steadfast in this journey of self-development so that Allah may use me to be an example for my daughter and other girls/women. The knowledge of self and of Allah can absolutely transform our lives!

There may be many challenges that I face, but it is my Islam that is making me stronger. My Islam is revolutionary. As long as I have Allah, I am a force and will continue to stand in the fight to serve as a vessel who is contributing toward bringing in the new world.

Sister Zakiyyah Maryam’s Islam is Resilient

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I am Zakiyyah Maryam and was born and raised in Memphis, Tennessee in the Nation of Islam. My family’s journey to Islam began with my Great-Grandmother, Willie (May Allah Be Pleased with her). She had to pick cotton when she was growing up. She was a sharecropper and that injustice system that kept black people in an economically insufficient condition also kept them away from formal education, which my great-grandmother did not have.When she was allowed to move away from sharecropping, she then began teaching herself how to read and became an avid reader. It was also the truth in the Teachings of the Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad, which is Freedom, Justice, Equality (Islam).

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The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad

The truth that the Black man is The Maker, The Owner, Cream of The Planet Earth, God of The Universe. The truth that the Black woman is the mother of civilization. The truth that Allah (God) came in the Person of Master W.D. Fard Muhammad and that The Messiah or Mahdi has come and would judge this world — in particular America based on her mistreatment of the so-called Negroes of North America and the members of the Original family (Native Americans/so-called Latinos, Asians, and our brothers and sisters in Africa).

This is The Teaching that uplifted my great-grandmother’s spirit and she began introducing her children to The Teachings of Islam through the Honorable Elijah Muhammad. Though my great-grandmother did not register as a Muslim in the NOI (Nation of Islam), my grandmother did and the rest is history. But on my own personal sojourn in Islam, I was soul searching and I was at a point in my life where I needed to find inner strength and inner peace and I discovered that in studying The Holy Qur’an as well as The Teachings. I was about 14 years old when I actually became personally invested in Islam and I decided that I wanted to officially re-register when I was 18-years-old making me officially a part of the M.G.T & G.C.C, Muslim Girl Training & General Civilization Class.

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Personally to be an M.G.T. is to be a sister, a righteous woman. A Muslim Girl in Training is not just a look. An M.G.T. is a righteous woman. Righteousness is the essence of our being. We are taught in the NOI that the woman is the second self of God. She is divine and sacred in her nature. Our seven training units brought to us by Master W.D. Fard were to lay the base of the cultivation of our righteous nature and to one day be the leading example for women all around the world. But I think, we must start by looking at our sisters, whether are Muslims or not, as truly our sisters and see the divineness in each other, just as the head of the class, The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan teaches.

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The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan has influenced me and the world in many ways, with the Help of Allah. One principle that the Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan has taught me is to challenge your fear. He has shown that throughout over his 60 years of service in the Nation of Islam and in rebuilding the Nation of Islam for 40 years absent his teacher, The Honorable Elijah Muhammad. The Minister has travailed through the opposition of the enemy, the powers that be, and other obstacles to complete the promise of Allah (God), which is to break our people free from the shackles of the enemy. The Minister discovered his purpose and I think when you know and understand your purpose in life that you are able to challenge your fear against the greatest of opposition because you have a firm ground of certainty of what it is that you must fulfill. This is not to say that challenging your fears is an easy feat, but it is possible.

According to the dictionary, “fear” is a distressing emotion aroused by impending pain, danger, evil, whether that pain, danger or evil is real, or imagined. If you become afraid even of some imaginary thing that has not yet happened, the distressing emotion will still be present. “Fear” is the feeling, or the condition of being afraid.
Fear restricts: Whatever we are afraid of, that which we fear makes us insecure; and whatever makes us afraid and insecure could cause us to bow. When we are afraid, fear causes us not to think properly. Fear causes us not to act properly. Fear makes you so insecure that you have a tendency to acquiesce, to submit, to surrender to the thing that you’re afraid of. And if you acquiesce, submit and surrender to what you are afraid of, then it becomes a god to you beside God!
– The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan, Fear, Faith, and Truth (article, lecture)

My current challenge as a Muslimah is attending a college campus with a Muslim population that is not only small but disconnected with the Muslim community outside of campus. Part of that challenge is the fact since Muslims have attended my university, there has not been a connection with the Muslim community outside of campus and that also impacts us individually, as well as how we see each other. It’s getting better now and I think the political climate is forcing us to understand that we do have to grow out of our little shells and embrace each other. I think for me it’s just been hard being the only Black muslim female student on campus and feeling in between of standing out but also feeling isolated. It was also hard because I was just beginning to join the NOI when I started college. But I think through prayer, patience and just being honest about my experience helped me overcome and also knowing I only have two months left, until graduation so I won’t feel this burden much longer.

It started with my great-grandmother who was planted with a love for Islam, so much that the love transpired and lives through my family. I am grateful for her being an example of what it means to be a mother of civilization and for her love to transcend and have such an impact generations later. I am thankful for everything she endured. She has taught me that Islam is Resilience. And resilient, I will be.

Sister Sharanda Died Three Times to Live

Prior to joining The Nation of Islam, I’d been having visions into future experiences. I am and always am destined to be spiritually inclined. I believed in a higher being or divinity, however I believe in The All. As a spiritual teacher, Jesus left principles that are worth adhering to. I understand when they ask Jesus how do you pray, he answered you pray unto the father. I pray only to The Creator, my sustenance comes through The All.

You are not taught to pray to be heard by Moses and other prophets, not even Elijah whom they say went to Heaven whole soul and body. If Elijah cannot hear a prayer and he was not killed as Jesus was, then how can Jesus hear a prayer? We must not pray to dead prophets. They can’t hear our prayers.
The Muslim loves all of Allah’s prophets, but we will not pray for life to come to us from a dead prophet; not even to Muhammad who lived nearly 1,400 years ago. We pray in the name of Allah and mention the name of His last prophet in our prayer as an honor and thanks to Allah for His last guide to us.
– The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad, Day of Resurrection of Dead So-Called Negroes Has Arrived (Reprint from Our Saviour Has Arrived)

The vision before I accepted was of my death 3 times. Did I die? In the last one, I cried out to Jesus and in the vision I said no “Allah”. I awoke confused of this vision, but it brought about an intense craving to read and learn. Thus, for months I did nothing but read all of the books I could find. I did not sleep – my family a woke and slept and each time they found me reading.

“When he is [you are] taught the spirit of truth, He will guide you into all truth.”
– The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan, The Crucifixion of Jesus

Next, I went through tremors and shaking when something moved me to my core, as confirmation that I was receiving truth. To say this is Divine intervention is correct. So much synchronicity happened in my life; it initially started when I came to America. I was meant to be here – Destiny would have it no other way.

The power of thought, as manifested through the Law of Synchronicity and The Theology of Time, projects all things coming to pass in the appropriate moment and place.
– Mother Tynetta Muhammad, A Picture is Worth a Thousands Words (article)

An MGT in The Nation of Islam is a woman knowing and accepting that all possibilities are open for me, I can accomplish what I will. That I am my own ruler. I design my fate according to my actions and deeds and first and foremost to do no harm. It means to me that I have accepted peace from within myself, from Allah no force can break. It means to me that the oneness of Allah is all I need.

Allah is sufficient for me—there is no God but He. On Him do I rely, and He is the Lord of the mighty Throne. (Holy Qur’an 9:128-129)

Being in The Nation of Islam, I am blessed to say I have not come across many challenges. My family at first questioned why, but let it go, because of love and tolerance for each other. Friends have not questioned my faith. One went as far as saying, I knew your spiritual path would take you where you wanted to be. She said and I quote:

“You are an all or nothing type of person.”

I may have died three times in a vision, but it saved me. Islam is Life.


Interested in knowing some of the books I read during this time:

  • At the beginning, I was guided to Psalm and completed this Book in The Bible.
  • I read Hermès Trice The Great twice
  • Dare to Believe by Mary Rowland
  • The Secret of Freemasonry by Elijah Muhammad
  • The Secret to Perfect Living by James Mangan
  • The Holy Qur’an
  • Study Guide 19: by The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan
  • The God Tribe of Shabazz
  • The Genesis Years (unpublished and rare writing)
  • The Motherplane by The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad
  • The Book of Enoch
  • Books on Aristotle, Plato, and Osho

Muslim Women’s Day: Sisters in The Nation of Islam

ProfessionallyI’m in marketing and was offended when a story in the pipeline for Muslim Women’s Day got delayed because “it’s not a widely-known holiday”. Because I’m taught to rise above emotions into the thinking of God, I realized that it is my responsibility to spread the Good News and represent as a Muslim woman. I don’t need to wait on anyone or expect anyone else to do the work. I will say, I am happy my job will share a story on a Muslim woman. It’s just that comment was an ouch that I turned into an opportunity.

Documented Journey covered eight stories of eight beautiful sisters who are embracing their Islam. Sit back in your chair and join us on our journeys.

* My Journey in Islam is TransformingSister Zakiyyah Maryam’s Islam is ResilientAllah’s love for His girl, Sister Terrika MuhammadI Am Covered Through TrialsSister Fatimah: The RevolutionaryWearing a garment is naturally beautifulSister Sharanda Died Three Times to LiveWho and what is your reflection?


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Reusable Cloth Pad Review & Usage

Tampons never. Pads forevermore.

I’ve tried so many pads and because menses and I have an ongoing relationship, I’ll continue finding what works best for us. As in any relationship, as the commitment deepens, changes need to be made for better alignment in communication. For now, there are two things that work best for us, Cherish and Reusable Cloth Pads. What do you need to ensure you and your yoni are in alignment?

Honestly, I prefer the reusable method. It may sound nasty. In fact, when I first heard about them, I thought they were one of the nastiest inventions. Although, I thought negatively about them, I was still curious to know about the product. The more resourceful I become, I gain a more efficient approach to life and overall make more logical and practical decisions for the long-term.

Are reusable cloth pads unsanitary?

I started thinking to myself why do I think this is nasty? I wear clothes, I clean them, and then re-wear them. I wear undergarments, I clean them, and then re-wear them. And let’s have a very truthful moment: as a young girl and even now as a woman, menses calls for mistakes (I’ll let you fill in the blanks), so what is the problem with a reusable cloth? You wash your body with your towels, clean them, and reuse them. So again, what is the problem? I really started to ask myself. And I came up with nothing. Then, I said, “you can’t knock it until you try it”. And that’s what got me Amazon boxes at my door. Boxes because when I shop on Amazon, I can’t just buy one thing, but back on topic, I go…

After my last conversation with a sister about purchasing cloth diapers for her baby girl (one of the reasons why I had multiple boxes), I finally realized that it was time for me to invest in cloth pads.

How do I manage the reuse process?

When I first got them, I was in awe. I literally touched them (yes! I needed to immediately know what my yoni would experience), then I folded them to see how they could fit into the “wet” bag to understand how to carry them in public. I think it’s important to experiment before you actually begin using them.

  1. I recommend you to wash the pads first because we don’t know who touched them during the packaging process, which is something that can’t be done with disposable pads that you buy in the store or online. We know someone touched them – No matter how chemical free they are. If you’re cleaning them in the washer, I recommend you using liquid laundry detergent because powder may stick, as it tends to do with blankets and similar materials. If you are hand washing, it should be fine because the powder shall not get caught in cracks, as what happens in the machine. Or if you’re hand washing, feel free to use the same soaps you use on your vulva. I do caution the hand wash approach as a complete clean (send questions for specific reasons). Ensure you ring the cloth pads out multiple times, you’ll notice why. This is strongly recommended before placing in the washer.
  2. After washing them, properly store them in your “wet” bag. You want to keep them closed, similar to how you would find packaged pads. Fold and button with the yoni part tucked away. I know laundry is infinite and some days are hard to fold clothes, but don’t leave the cloth pads out in the open. You want to put these away to reduce any exposure, just as you should with your undergarments.
  3. Once you’re wearing them, change as you see fit. I can’t give you a timeframe because you know what works for you, your body, and your cleanliness routines. However, I suggest that the time does not exceed two hours.
  4. If you’re out, put a regular sized sandwich or paper bag in the part of the bag that you plan to hold your wet cloths of the “wet” bag. My bag has two zippers – one for fresh and wet cloths. I decided to carry a sandwich bag or the bag that the cloth pads were originally packaged in (I told you, I’m resourceful) to seal the wet cloths to ensure my menses aren’t being exposed, as much as I could and to avoid any messes. This honestly isn’t a messy process (though I thought it would be).
  5. If/once you’re home, wash wet cloths and store in a proper place. I clean my wet cloths in the shower with cold/warm water and a washable sponge to rinse the menses, as a way to avoid stains, and then let them dry the same way face towels do. When washing, be sure to ring out the pads multiple times. Then, I wash again in the washer machine for an efficient clean with towels, as mentioned later. If you’re uncomfortable with cleaning your cloths in the shower or in the sink, then store them in a container with cold/warm water that can hold as many as possible between usage and laundry time. I don’t recommend the pads to sit in the container for a long period of time. I’ll leave the timeframe up for your judgement. If you decide to go this route, I recommend you washing the container each time you empty it. Again, I wouldn’t go this route (it doesn’t align with being clean to me), but I noticed some cloth users prefer this method.
  6. Wash the pads and reuse. Initially, I washed the pads with towels prior to use. I did so because that was what I needed to clean at the time of delivery. However, after analyzing, I think that makes the most of sense (since they’re similar) and I continue with that process. Or you can wash them along with all of your undergarments together in one load.
  7. Repeat steps 1-6.

If you think of different methods feel free to suggest in the comments or email us here. You may leave a comment anonymously. If you try cloth pads, we want to know what you think. Let us know if you want to share your story.

Why reusable pads are encouraged

  • Environmentally friendly
  • Economically smart
  • Love and respect for your yoni

Environmentally friendly

In some cases, I despise recycling. I only have a problem with recycling because most store brought pads are made from recycled plastics or worse. Have you heard of the phrase, “transforming waste into wealth”? Would you consider it to be permissible for someone to go into your recycling bin, make pads out of what you had in this dirty environment, while also adding chemicals, and then selling them to you? You wouldn’t like this? Then why are you still buying trash pads? Reusable cloth pads is environmentally friendly because you’re in control of the environment.

Economically smart

How much do you spend on pads per month? Are you purchasing in bulk? Probably not because there aren’t any good brands that you can stock up on. If you’re still using trash pads, I will share a tip that you can purchase Always in bulk at Sam’s Club, but know they are in no shape or form good for your body.

Love and respect your yoni

I recommend reusable cloth pads because as a woman, you’re going to need pads for as long as you and your menses are in a committed relationship. So why not serve your yoni and pockets (coins) right?

If you love yourself, you will invest in self. Invest in cloth pads and you won’t have to purchase another pad in years, unless you just love having a collection of cloth pads like women love having a line of (under)garments, which by chance they’re really pretty. They even have some cute designs for your girls, yes purchase these for your daughters and save so much money! Better yet, you and your daughter can sew these together.

Last, historically we were using cloth pads. Let’s get back to our roots.

Time for the review 

I love them. They are very comfortable to sleep in (may I mention that was the first time I wore them). They are the softest things ever. Another very truthful moment, I don’t sweat with these. One of the major reasons why I don’t like pads, but tampons were and will never be an option for me.

The wings don’t move. Y’know? Scrape against your thigh (ouch! sometimes this can be a pain). The pad doesn’t twist and turn? Nope. Everything stays in place. No matter how much I move. I can run, dance, participate in martial arts, yoga, you name it, and my cloth pad will still be where I placed it (as long as you’re wearing the proper lady garments, but if you’re not aware, we are happy to specify). And if I place it wrong, I can shift it, button it and go. Unlike “sticky” pads and wings, once you remove them to fix the placement, they’re either bundled up or just like what the heck; it’s time to get a new one.

Shall I go on? I took the time to type this, so you must know how much I love them because I have the desire to share.

I would wear them everyday!

Pantyliners? What? These are my new liners. Cloth pads come as a pantyliner version, as well. There are different sizes to match your comfort and flow.

Which brand do I recommend? 

I order from Teamoy via Amazon for the Prime benefits.

If you order large, you will get a large pad similar to the overnight pads or off-brand large. So they should be long enough for your active duties.

Any other questions?

Well, they may be a little too personal, so just reach out to me. You may contact us here.


Thank you for visiting Documented Journey, until next time.

Wearing a garment is naturally beautiful.

On a typical moment of scrolling on Facebook, I smiled when I noticed a Sister expressing her love for wearing a garment. In my elation, I had to stop and read her post. In it she was sharing how thankful she was to have and wear a garment that is instructed for Sisters who are registered members in The Nation of Islam (NOI) under The Teachings of The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad.Screen Shot 2018-02-16 at 11.02.28 AM


I truly love being in my garment, so when I see the same appreciation in other Sisters, it just makes me smile inside. To know that Sisters feel comfortable and that they’re being their true selves, while being completely covered. Most of all, the garment is a sign of obedience – it’s pleasing to Allah (God).

Sister Tanzania says, “People wear clothing to express themselves to show their sense of fashion. Wearing a garment isn’t something a lot of women are willing to do. Being in a wicked society, tight and revealing clothes is the trend.”

Is tight and revealing clothing the trend? 

I beg your pardon. I think not. I agree with Sister Tanzania – being of this world will make us think that our undergarments are permissible to wear. Tights and leggings have become the new pants. Undergarments have become a part of the attire of many for the rest of the world to see, but the reality is it shows that we don’t understand what beauty is or what it means to value ourselves as a woman.

A trend is what we make it. The Sisters in The Nation of Islam are rocking their garments confidently and setting the standard for what it means to dress and be modest.

“What a person is wearing can either bring their confidence down or boost it.”

– Sister Tanzania X

Sister Tanzania continues with reflections of her confidence while wearing her garment, “As for me, mine was at an all time high. I walked different, my smile was different, even my energy level changed. Prior to getting ready for the weekly Wednesday evening study group at The Final Call, it was like soon as I put my garment on my energy changed from blah to queen. I think that’s because our garments represent self respect, obedience, courage which is natural for us as women.

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Sister Tanzania and Sister Christian

What’s the difference between being beautiful and naturally beautiful? 

“Being naturally beautiful to me means being yourself and blocking out what the outside world thinks of what you’re wearing and how you look. Beautiful means you may have to put in a bit more effort to achieve a certain look rather than when you’re natural it just flows”, says Sister Tanzania.

“Understand that our primary goal as women is to be beautiful. Yes, you read it right. Our primary goal in life is to be beautiful. Now you see why you are almost obsessed with your appearance, while men seem to care nothing about theirs… The desire to be beautiful is innate; it was programmed into our DNA by the First God Who Created Himself in and from the triple darkness of space.”

-Sister Dr. Ava Muhammad, Naturally Beautiful

Although being beautiful is a primary goal for the woman, we must not get carried away in the physical beauty, as much. When we work more on our mental and spiritual being our physical appearance will simultaneously enhance.

When the three wombs are properly healed and nurtured, we attract higher vibrations and will receive the best of compliments.

Sister Tanzania says, “While wearing my garment I received more respectful feedback rather than lustful. Overall my spirit is on a more positive level because I didn’t have to worry about attracting any unwanted attention.”

I noticed that I’m treated different when I’m in my garment. Sometimes I don’t like it that way because I deserve the same high respect that I get with or without the garment. I am human. I am a woman. I am still your Sister. I encourage everyone to respect women all over the world regardless of creed, class or color, and regardless of what she’s wearing.

One of the questions we receive: where can I get your outfit?

Garments are for registered Sisters in The Nation of Islam, referred to as M.G.T. & G.C.C. No other woman or organization has our garments, especially not the headpiece.

Sister Tanzania says, “Buying clothes from a store doesn’t compare to a garment. I whole heartedly  believe that when wearing our modest clothes, we represent God and also the talents of the person who made it. This isn’t regular clothing. My garments are tailor made and crafted by very talented women.”

Sister Tanzania supports the following Sisters who are also registered members in The Nation of Islam and who are passionate about modesty. They desire women to see the beauty in modest fashions and have turned that will into a brand and company for women all over the world.

 

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Sister Tanzania wearing a garment purchased by Sister Shimah Muhammad

 

Sister Tanzania continues, “First and foremost all praises are due to Allah for (RE)conditioning the way I choose to dress. I also give thanks to the sisters for assisting me. My loving husband has also been a huge support with my transformation.

There are many reasons why women in the NOI wear modest clothing. We are always on a mission to represent God. Ask yourself would He be pleased with what you’re wearing? Being attracted to someone because of physical appearance will eventually fade away. We should strive to be drawn to people because of their knowledge and genuine love. Motivating black women to cover ourselves is one of the many responsibilities of wearing a garment.

I wear my headpiece proudly, it gives me a sense of protection that I’ve never felt before. When I wear my headpiece, I notice people think twice about acting or talking a certain way around me. I had a hard time covering my hair when I first came into the NOI because I always loved getting my hair done and showing it off but now I loveeeee wearing my headpiece and still slay.”

I love that Sister Tanzania is open about having a hard time covering her hair initially. Going back to the primary need we have to be beautiful: Initially it can seem as if covering our hair is taking away beauty, but now I see it as something that enhances my beauty. Now, that I understand my hair is an adornment (1 Peter 3:3), I’m happy to cover. I no longer have a need to show my hairstyles to everyone. I know that all of my beauty is for me and my future husband.

In comparison to a lot of first moments, why did you want to share this one with Facebook?

“I chose to share this moment with Facebook because I no longer cared about what anyone would say, who would judge, nor if I would lose friends or family. Publicly revealing my transition to the world was not only a step closer to Allah it was a step closer toward loving myself more.”

Sister Tanzania concludes with: “My life has drastically changed since I’ve came in to The Teachings of The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad. Learning how to cook, sew, take care of my husband and rear my children properly just to name a few of our seven units has made such an impact on them, as well. It is through me that they are able to obtain a healthy and loving home. I’m forever grateful and honored to be an M.G.T.”

I Live – Poem

What I’m going to share is not my story alone. Your story is mine, my story is yours. So I ask: as I share my experience, will you reflect on self?


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I am beginning to appreciate the Cycles of Life.

Allah wrote on my heart last night, I felt His presence so clearly.

He imprinted His mind on mine and I received it all in a dream.

I woke up and realized what Allah was showing me. He gifted me with The Bee to say the least. He reminded me of all of the reasons to live.

He gives me purpose when I feel as if there’s none left for me. He told me to stop asking “how” but to remember the mission and get right to work because it’s a remedy for healing illnesses. Diving into the work provides direction. I bear witness. It recharges you and gives life when it feels as if there’s nothing left. The work fuels you. Being in your presence fuels me and if I come in with my Higher Power, then I too, can fuel you.

And I desire that reciprocity, for us to be a reflection of one another. We are His children, so let’s mirror what that means.

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Selfless when it comes to serving God. Because although this is my life to live, my life is not mine. I am all for God. And God is love, so I’m living because interchangeable to love is to live. So I had to (re)learn how to love me again. This new found love enabled me to live again. But do you understand that I partially had to die for this rebirth to love and live again? Understand, that I say again because killing doubt, ego, fear, insecurities, and vain is an everyday process.

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I’ve come to realize that we are always in the womb, a stage in our development that brings forth our reality, a new chapter on our journey of life. This journey is an awakening path. And on this path I had to learn from The Minister that, “pain is the mother of creativity”, so I had to reflect on the illnesses that Allah permitted, but I caused.

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It was like starting over from the womb. I had to go back to a dark place, I had to put myself in a confined space. All I could hear and feel was Allah. All third parties had to be removed. It was just me and Allah. And honestly, I did not like this place or the pace in which God and I were co-existing. Everything seemed to be too slow. I was becoming impatient. My impatience led to me becoming a sick patient.

Due to my ignorance of not wanting to endure the pregnancy phase, I began to lose the critical aspects of my development because I aborted the process. The 9 stages. I need all 9 to aim towards completeness to become one with Allah, to be whole again. But my pain brought me back to life.

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I made a commitment to take care of self first. And stop doing the most for others. I had to arrange the line of duty in the right order.

I turned the TV off to see my reality clear. My life became crystallized and my need for crystals vanished because I was able to activate my crystals within.

But in order for me to keep them charged, I had to remember that I’m dependent, so I submitted to God. And my love for Him prepared me for the battlefield. His armor helped me confront my trials. And when I got through them, this time I wasn’t broken. Instead, I was renewed. Transformed for His cause.

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I have another problem. When I learn, I like to give. You see? I give as I receive. But I’m learning as I receive, I shall pause for I, for me. Just as I need to parse words, I need to parse the moment. When I’m done sharing a piece that God gave to me, I’m going to take part in a moment of solitude, which has “I” before “U” in the word solitude with lit before the u.

See I need to spark a fire in myself first, in order to be So LIT. So-lit-tude. That probably went over your heard. But basically, if I don’t see myself as light then no one else will.

So my selah moments lift me. Selah just means praise and meditation. So my Selah moments lift me. So when people say “there is no cure for that”, I tell them, don’t use that dead language around me. You + Allah is your own cure, but you gotta spark that mustard seed by putting your faith to work.

Blessed doesn’t mean that I won’t be a mess… In fact it’s because of my mess, that I am blessed. Misfortunes are my fortunes. The way you challenge me shows me my challenged self. So please encourage me when you see I’m off. And I’ll do the same for you. Cause when together, we reflect our Higher Self… Flying like the bee…

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Can I talk about my totem with you? The bee. The bee is my spiritual totem. A totem, is similar to a spirit animal, but on a higher plane.

According to science, bees are not supposed to be able to fly, like the Black man and woman are not supposed to rise. The wings of a bee are not supposed to be able to lift the weight of their body. Our knowledge is not supposed to be able to lift the masses of the people. But, like the bee who has its wings, we have our wings. Protect your temple. Use your crown as the wings to free yourself as the bee does.

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BUT in order to reach this freedom:

You gotta start over from the womb. Go back to a dark place, put yourself in a confined space. Hear and feel Allah. Remove all third parties. Just you and Allah. And honestly, you may not always like this place or the pace in which God and you coexist. Everything may seem too slow. You may become impatient, but don’t become a sick patient.

Endure the pregnancy phase. Enjoy your development. It’s a process of 9 stages. You need all 9 to aim towards completeness to become one with Allah, to be whole again.

If you nurture the trimesters, you will give birth to a god. That’s you a new god. Your pain will bring you back to life. And instead of coexisting with God, you will live with Him. Don’t just exist. Live. Understand your purpose, take care of you, so that you may heal the community.

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Allah wrote on my heart last night, I felt His presence so clearly.

He imprinted His mind on mine and I received it all in a dream.

I woke up and realized what Allah was showing me. I parsed my learnings in moments of solitude. And then I gave (right now) what I received to you.

I am beginning to appreciate the Cycles of Life.