I did not know my purpose in life before coming into The Nation of Islam. In fact majority of the time I was just surviving mentally, spiritually, and physically. When I say I was just surviving, I mean I was existing, but not living. I was not confident, but today I’m empowered and I’m thriving as a member in The Nation of Islam.
Today is my born day, physical birth of coming into this world and I can never thank Allah enough for my mother and for His Coming.
If you do not know it, everyday is Mother’s Day. Not just today that Mexico acknowledges or this upcoming Sunday that the world has marked on calendars. So I thank my mom for her sacrifice everyday.
Today is also Mother Tynetta’s birthday, the wife of The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad. Therefore, today is special because of Mothers. Mother Tynetta is one who paved the way for us and who encourages me.
Back to today and not knowing my purpose in life. Mark Twain once said,
“The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why.”
Not only did I not know my purpose, I did not have love for my people. For those who know me personally, that would probably be hard to believe. I always wanted best for my people, but because of the anger and mistreatment that we have for one another, I did not want to be bothered. It does not feel good or right to even make that known. We can all relate though. We do that with our family. How can we say, “I don’t want to be bothered with my family?” and why is that? Our people are our family, so if we’re not going to spend time with our family, who are we going to spend time with?
I noticed I did not love myself in a way that I thought I did. I know I didn’t because if I don’t want to be around my Black people, then it’s something about myself that I did not want to confront. And there was something that I did not know about self yet. So, I needed to tap into my thinking. What was I thinking? That we are a pathetic people. How did I improve my thinking? By being affirmed.
The Teachings of The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad has allowed me to love all of me.
Upon coming in one of the first things I learned was that God is in fact a Black man. My thought was the Supreme Being looks like me? Jesus having hair like wool is a real depiction and reflection of me? Wow!
Then I read “Accept your own and be yourself.” As a Black woman, I hadn’t been taught to accept me or to be myself. In fact, I was on my way toward being an actress as an escape from me being me and as a way of focusing on everyone else, except self, and most of those characters had nothing to do with my history. I do love everything about acting, however, the reasons listed above our true about why I needed acting at the point in my life.
The Nation of Islam was my first introduction of what affirming Black looks like and because of that I was able to begin affirming myself.
As I read through each page of Message To The Blackman in America, written by The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad (The Messenger of Allah) I grew to love myself in ways that I did not know was possible. The very dedication itself is an affirmation.
…To My People,
The S0-called American Negro, Freedom, Justice, and Equality; Happiness, Peace of Mind, Contentment, Money, Good Jobs, Decent Homes — all these can be yours if you accept your God, Allah, now and return to His (and your original) religion, Islam.
After a few months of being in The Nation of Islam, I realized I love my people, but I actually needed to know about who we are in order for me to grow in love with my people. Although, I wanted to learn about Black History in school, I never asked anyone why slavery alone was taught as Black History. Yes, I questioned it in my mind, but I never vocally inquired about the concern I had. Coming into The Nation, I learned that Black history is the beginning and has no ending. Learning about my Black self and God, who is Black, it allowed me to love my Beautiful Brothers and Sisters.
Today, I can’t help but love being Black. I never had a problem being Black, but today I appreciate it more than I ever could. I have patience because I remember when I did not have the knowledge of self. I remember feeling so confused. I literally was blind, deaf, and dumb. I received Light and can’t help but spread what I’ve been given.
Prior to coming the mosque, I became an Empowerment Coach. I didn’t quite understand why I was in that role. However, after my first few months at the mosque, I realized I was walking in my purpose. My work with empowerment groups has been impactful. Honestly, dedicating time to uplift others has helped me become a better person. I understand the pain more, not because I’ve been through a lot of what my brothers and sisters have, but because I know The Time we’re living in and I hope we can all understand who we are and where we need to be.
I seek to understand where the anger and mistreatment is coming from. We all struggle with PTSD, starting with slavery. Therefore, I’m open and I’m happy to be here for my family as long as my family is willing to share. It won’t always be easy, I won’t always have patience, but I’m here. I’m not bothered. I’m ready to fulfill my purpose because I am thankful for The Work of The Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad and His Extension The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan for The Teachings and their love for us, for me.
I am living, walking confidently. I am empowered and thriving as a member in The Nation of Islam. My purpose is to empower and I’m living it out.